Just A Little Update

Here I am still part of the Hospital inpatient program, and slipped a bit on the ward with my anger. Someone on the ward sabotaged some of my personal preperty on the ward and I blew my cork and got put back on the closed side of the ward for a bit. I is like snakes and ladders a bit and I slid down my snakey angry path and I am now trying to work up the ladder for priviliges again on the ward. I cooled my jets a bit through talk therapy with the student Nurses that are doing their stages on the ward. I am also going to get to the hospital Dentist this week in the hospital to be seen by the student Dentists program in the Montreal General Hospital. As it turns out my Psychiatrist tols me to bit mytongue at my up coming Tribunal hearing to get out of hospital. Things are being handled professionally, for I also gave the hospital staff a copy of the credit card reciept that was left in my apartment during an illegal entrance. Like my Mum says to me, all things work out in the end with honesty.....till I get writing again for I must get back to my hospital ward...... May 18th 2010-Time passes quickly on the hospital ward and the Doctor said the staff is pround of how I control my anger on the ward, it can be very fustrating on a psychiatric ward. With being part of what the Allan hospital calls the Reinsertion program for inpatients we are kept busy. In the morning meeting for the group we all come up with a positive phrase and write it on the chaulk board, the phrase I came up this morning with was, walk in stride with the march of the day. Then we gathered in large room for a relaxation group. We limber up doing some stretching exercises then try to relax in silence for a bit, on the second leg of the relaxation group we listen to a relaxation tape. The various groups that we have while working with a Nurse, takes away the effect of being what is like a house arrest with not being allowed off hospital property until my review at the Tribunal at the end of the month, it is really stupid how I got arrested for supposing to harass a media personality. I just got to shut my mouth at the Tribunal and let the Angels of Mercy work for me at my hearing, so that I will be free again and not have to stay in hospital.  It is getting and I must be back oon the ward for 3 pm so I will sign off for now again.I wrote some things I should not have wrote about association to the Harper family, Which I retract and will erase when I find it, it came out the wrong way with anger due to PM Harper singling me out for comments which I am told I hallucinated. I just have these childhood memories of dealing with a Haper in the school yard amoung other things, sorry for the problems caused.
Update: May 27th 2010, here I am being patient as my second Tribunal hearing comes upon me. With all going well at this hearing after the hospital stay since January, I will be discharged on Monday May 31st 2010 with the blessings of the Tribunal. The Doctor and staff feel confortable with my state of mind right now, at least I admit I have a bit of an anger problem at this point in my life. I never ever thought that I would get arrested for anything, I guess I just approached the wrong person to be my art manager, and then try to charm the person. Nothing ever did seem to work out right for me ever since I became a person diagnosed with schizophrenia. I will be getting a new Doctor to work with if I indeed get discharged on the 31st. Part of my anger problem evolved from working with the last Doctor I had as an out patient, it is like she called me delusional for everything, hallucinating the class room at University, the coffee shop and like everything else inclusive of radio and TV. Then again I know better than thinking that way, I did not hallucinate the class room if I can pass the University course and order a coffee to drink and pay for it. With Dad passing away before Christmas, I got my work cut out for me to help take care of Mum with the likes of putting in her air conditioner and stuff like that. My Doctor suggested that I have my Mum come and vouch for me at the hearing on Monday, and Mum agreed to come to the hearing. I am back on injectable medication and only take the side effect medication for my Extra Paramidal Side Effects. Anyway we will see how it goes Monday and I just got to keep my cool at the hearing and I will be a free man again with getting discharged from the hospital, while maintaining my appointments for my injection every two weeks. so till later.....

Here I Am Still In The Allan Memorial Insitute Of Montreal As A Patient In Psychiatry, Out Again On A Pass After A Long Period Of Not Being Out, Images Are Art I Did In Hospital Based on A Flower In The Hospital Music Room And A Landscape From One Of Art History's Great Masters Hanging in The Ward's Conference Room.

Here I am sorting out some of my affairs at the University while out on an afternoon pass from the Allan. Got over alot of my anger from being yanked out of society at the Tribunal I had to attend. When I got paper work back from the Tribunal and getting clued in on what was going on, I settled down a bit. Here I am on a computer in a computer shop close to the University getting a blog posting up and written a bit. I have decided to now use the Artist signature Doc GM (squared) after adding Mickeal to my pen name in rememberance of my Grandfather. Time is precious and I must to a search in Google on the medication I will soon be put on,, more or less looking for mental health consumer information on the medication....till I get back writting my blog ......later....Back to working and maintaining my Studio engineering technology shop, here it is Saturday April 3rd 2010, home from the hospital again for the day, the guitar got the spring tune up, now it is time for "My Betties", the computer, making sure what works due to all the dust and grime in my place from Detroit Rock City blowing off the St Lawerance from the jet stream, hooking on the building protruding section and blowing in my window. I got my fine vacuum hose on my vacuum cleaning nossal, just got to watch the heat on my motor so it does not over heat with my nozzle modification and vacuum out my computer. Next to do, I think I am going to make a small room filter at my computer cooling fan suction located in the back. I know inside needs cleaned so now is to shut down and spring clean my computer named  Betties,... so long for now.....An hour later or so and I am altogether again. Made like a skirt/filter of teary cloth hanging over the back to the floor covering my connextings and cooling fan. The computer can be cleaned up some more, for that I got to have a technician that knows more than me. ....on my mini  flexable tubing I put a disinfectant cloth on it with a elastic band. ....wiped then vacuumed out again with the hose cut on an angle....coffeee time!!!!! Easter Sunday 2010: Here I am back at home on an Easter Sunday  pass from the hospital and on a continual process of spring cleaning the apartment/home. For the second image in this posting, after I did the landscape in the hospital, I looked at it, and saw how my sexual fustration comes out again in my art, it kind of looks like women's panties in the red flower scape with a hedge hog sitting on top of the red growth in the valley of the land scape. I turn the big 50 this year and feel as young as ever even although I spent most of my life alone. Even my Mum at 80 years old can still walk the hill up the mountain to the hospitals like me, it has been a quarter century working with McGill Medical Services as an in patient/out patient....now to do some more spring cleaning in my fox hole of a home , then back to then hospital for blood pressure check and medication time !!!!!! The Saga Continues: cleaning, cleaning, cleaning, key board got a once over with a handy wipe, dam cigarette smoke, constantly cleaning up after second hand smoke and I live alone! Changed my widow filter of green teary cloth, this time there is curtain shear stiched on to the green teary cloth for a secondary filter layer on the inward side, it keeps car exhaust etc out of my apartment somewhat! Grant you it is only duct taped in, when I get to wash my windows, a good scrub with bio-degradable cleaner and paint thinner will lift my old tape marks. I bought wood to make a proper box and will put the box design up on the Internet when I make it, nobody ownes filter processes it is used in everything including wine making!!!! In a while ....Update: April 8th 2010:  It seem fashionable for blundering idiots to say what they resent in the media recently, along with some of my words being resented. Too bad certain politicians tried to make it legal  to commit idustrial sabotage against me, then I have to live with the memory of a fool saying to me, he ate part of my Father after he past away. I am still trying to pick up the pieces from illegal entrance into my home/office/art studio/engineering shop, sooner or later I will get some one to foot the bill for all the damages when I get the appropiate individuals to take action over the credit card reciept for an expensive suit left behind in my apartment, never mind the demented idiots I got to combat that think they own me, above averge intelligencia usaully rules over blundering fools!!!!! Got to get back to picking up the pieces from industrial sabotage, so in a while! Funny how when ever I come home on a pass from the Hospital, I got to tinker with my engineering toys to get a clear cable TV signal, I get next to nothing done picking up the pieces of my home while trying to maintain my cable TV signal with other peoples hotwiring and cable TV signal jamming, as long as I can read the fine print on the 24 hour CTV National News and CBC broadcast on my cable TV, I am pround of the mess of my engineering shop/art studio/apartment!!!!! Here on the local CTV News, illegal cigarettes are mentioned, if I was not done in by bullshit I could afford $10 a day for my cigarettes instead of supporting the Canadian Native Indian tobacco trade or picking between the North Carolinia / Virginia tobacco or pharmacuetical valium trade, when I get nervous about things around my life.Mainly securing my home against illegal entrance with it being commandeered.  Do not get caught up smoking cigarettes or popping valium, the young should totally stay away from smoking as society evolves against it as it is doing as to poppig the addictive valium!!! Hey Tigar Woods, you are hearing a voice from the grave, it is on the News, my Psychiatrist would say you need medication for your auditory hallucinations, you are getting nervous about your sins against your wife!!!!! Then here I am I have figured out how to burn my urine in a bio-fuel just to make sure my residual medication in my urine does not go into the water table and I still have to live in poverty!!! Then in the News, abortions, yea like I wrote before, I have been part of two abortions, I never had the $10,000 in the bank at the time with family planning, I forced the abortion, thank God too other wise it would have been another child raised in poverty, I always lost everything any way, but I won the right to abort as a male twice!!

The Gates Of Creativity, That Helps Make Mental Health Consumers Survive, What "Birks House Artists" Does For For Me!

Here I am at the close of 2007 and I find myself totally dependant on McGill University Medical Services for my survival. As much as I have bashed the Hospital System for their treatment of me as a person with schizophrenia, I depend on them whole heartedly and the Hospital copes and deals with my anger as Mental Health Consumer. Yes I have bashed the Hospital system in my blog, but we both learned from the experience. I know that I am not a lone, even although I feel it a lot of the time. I love the Montreal General Hospital and the Allan Memorial Insitute, as much as they love their one and only Doctor Goober Mickeal. I took a lot of anger out on the Hospital System through my blog, but I love McGill Medical Services with my whole heart and soul, for they have stood by me through thick and thin. Even although I carry a lot of hatred for being a Mental Health Consumer, the Montreal General Hospital and the Allan Memorial

Institute does everything for me to help me deal with this complex. (Taking a break from writing about McGill Medical Services that stood by me, to help me succeed as an Artist/Writer in Psychiatry, going for a beer and shedding a tear for how the Hospital will do anything for me) So I am back writing, McGill Medical is something really special for how they stood by me. My Psychiatrist and I coped a deal, that I am to have a New Years resolution as to not take my anger out on her, she is a good Doctor that cares about me, she even bought some art off me to support the Hospital Art Group this Christmas. Yes, Mental Health Consumers can carry a lot of anger due to the stigma of Psychiatry and I often shed a tear for what I have been through in the system, battling it out being me. Over all, Doctors, Nurses, Orderlies, Research Assistants and patients, supported the Hospital Art Group by buying art off us this Christmas. It was not just me making money, it was other members of the Art Group as well and I send out a special thanks to the Hospital Staff for supporting the Hospital Art Group! I remember when a Psychiatrist one Christmas, had to have my greeting cards, for he is a very special fan of mine and my efforts to succeed as as a Mental Health Consumer in the Arts. Over all, I feel really touched by the Hospital Staff 's efforts in supporting the Art Group. The image displayed in this posting are the doors to psychiatric patients success at the Montreal General Hospital's Day Center for Mental Health Consumers. When I have nothing else and need someone to talk to late at night when I am alone, I aways have a telephone answering machine at the Day Center or with my Doctor's Research Assistant's extension phone number. Psychiatry is the hardest of all medical professions, for it is not an exact science but a guess and by gosh for treatment to deal with the mind. The Art Group at the Hospital gives me a forum for my creative outlet and gets me out of the house once a week to be stimulated my our Animatrise. The Art Group made some money this Christmas thanks to Hospital Staff being so supportive of us! As I close this posting, once again a special thanks goes out to Psychiatric Staff for coping and dealing with my anger with me being a Mental Health Consumer as the person that I am. Here is the link to the art group's website:

http://www.freewebs.com/birkshouseartists

side effects,ambulance bills, hospitalsLoosing The Battle To Extra Pyramidal Side Effects, I am Fighting Them All The Time, Even As I Try and Write my Entry On My Blog

Where do I even try and explain the torturing muscle contrations that are the result of the Extra Pyramidal Side Effects (EPSE), I have involuntary mouth movements and my whole upper body in constant contractions. It has been so bad twice, I have been gasping for air and could not breath. With these muscle contractions in constant presences, I can not work at much. I am even fighting them as I write my blog. I always under cut Psychiatrist's perscribtion levels and worked and payed taxes. Now I can not even do that, I am a bit of a freak to look at during my contractions, I had another ambulance bill being taken to the Royal Victoria Hospital, when I called 911. I can not even pay all my ambulance bills. It is like the people that set out to distroy me for standing up for the Canadian National Building Code succeeeded. I am popping more and more pills to control the EPSE, I now even have slight loss of balance and unable to work in my trade this summer, I now feel I will never be able to work in my trade again. I am too medicated with no balance. The ambulance bills have racked up with stupidity working around me. It was like people wanted to distroy me because I was too good for my own good!!! Test posting abilities