Doc GM's Political Messenger Vol. XX Edition l

Doc GM

Like I Past Wrote, I Was Going To Devulge Into My Story Around Mariquania Consumption

                            I first started on candy cigarettes from the candy store as a child, it was part of a calling to be like my Father who was a smoker himself. That was somewhere in the late sixties in the second home  our family was in as my parents saved and invested in a house for us to grow up in, instead of just renting a house. I'll take time to reflect on how the story goes, it is really something to think about. As a young family Mum and Dad took us on a lot of travels in the car pulling a camper trailer behind us. One time on a long trip to visit family in the southern part of the United States of America, I would sit in the front of the car between the two of them with Dad driving and he would have me roll a cigarette for him while he was driving. Jack be nimble, Jack be quick, I learned how to roll a cigarette with my fingers too quick. As I grew older as a young child, I not sure when, but somewhere along the way I remember pinching some tobaaco out my Father's tin and a rolling paper and tried rolling a cigarette down by the furnance of the house and smoked it at the work bench. This was my first attempt to smoke and be like my Father. The cigarette made me feel sick and I had to go to bed and lay down. 

                                                    While doing delivery of a morning newspaper and having the money, I soon picked up smoking cigarettes in grade 9 in high school. It was a different time and era, which I call the post hippie era. smoking and cigarettes were openly advertised and purchased by the youth. I remember starting to smoke mariquania sometime during the period of being a 14 year old, starting on cigarettes first like a lot of my peers at the time. 

                                                   I smoked most of my life in my solidtude or having a beer, or it was done socially  as well. I am not saying it was the right type of life to lead. Since 1984, I have been consuming mental health medication and admit to self medicating with mariqunia consumption during these years, it was my small reward like my own hero biskit, when not having much else or a woman to turn to instead of being alone. Now, with the last time in Court I have mariquania and alcohol induced schizohrenia. If I did I would be dead or in jail with others from doing delusional things and getting in trouble, which I never did. Medical Professionals are yet to accept that I had a nervous breakdown in my youth, damaging myself and brain, while getting a schizophenia repair job over the years. 

 

                                               

                                       

                                          The smoking pot issue is a big one, it is legal now in Canada, the smell of it lingers on ones clothes and the smell is offensive to some. Police Officers on my paper route knew I was smoking pot and cigarettes for I was seen smoking doing my paper route delivery or collecting my money to get to my paper route manager. The Police knew I was a minor and what I was doing. I used to make confession about society and the high school through my eyes, at the time I did not who I made confession to, until they showed me who they were in uniform. Even in Canadian Coast Guard College when I was there. In private I made confessions to a Superior Officer about stupidity i witnessed on the base, to saying "Your are busted" to a second year Cadet, for driving his foot with his parade boots on into the lower part of a new gyp-rock wall. Being charged with distruction/sabotage of Government of Canada property is a serious offence. As to the thought of being in uniform and being owned as Government property, that they are investing in individuals to go out and produce for their country.

                                It was always hard trying to produce and earn a living as a mental health consumer in 
Montreal. I smoked a lot of pot and numerous beers building my education plan to become something of myself as a mental health consumer consuming psychiatric medication, I got my education in engineering, worked in the field around a lot of machinary and financed my way through it all, trying to keep my nose clean of stupidity, but a lot of shit happens around tools, drugs and alcohol. I have been through the mill with it, and know how to handle it pretty well, I do not drink alcohol on my present medication but still smoke a bit of pot to relax and as a pain killer which I openly discuss with my Psychiatric Team, Pharmacists and the Superior Court of Quebec, that are  now doing follow up on my treatment plan that I was dragged into Court over by Psychiatrists. 

                    I admit how I started to do drugs and alcohol a young age was wrong, 50 something years ago was a different time, now I would say to the young, do not do any drugs (pot/hash) and alcohol until the age of 25, get through school cost effectively sober and then think about drug and alcohol control as they grow into it as a young adult. 

                            I am trying to over come certain health issues, keeping busy in my engineering and art, I  have limited time to make blog posting as time seems to pass so fast. While  working towards smoking less pot, through using my own occupational therapy technique for this coming lent, to lead a healthier life style, processing water for coffe, juice and cook water. At this point in my life I am not consuming alcohol for now and do not suck on cigarettes any more, that has been quit. Then all this people want to put me in prison, for what? I have a Lawyer or Lawyers and have to pass through Court first, which I have become accustom to.