Doc GM's Political Messenger Vol. XlX Edition Vl

            
             Justice in a cloudy scale of lighting, radio talk people want to put me in prison, I was always being done in going back to primary school with baskit balls being driven at my head. It is not tolerated these days, bullying peers is on the way out, I feel abused by the system at this day and age with being 60. How many years back now, I was at a mental health artistic prime on the Internet with a a good size art portfolio. I was arrested for contacting a media personality, with in a short time later, I became homeless, this was during the Harper government.  At that point in my life I had my window filter installed in my apartment window which faced the street, I even have a Police report when I was locked out of my apartment and showed the officer my window filter. It is  hard to write at present due to trembling too much, till later. 

            

                         

Doc GM's Political Messenger Vol. XlX Edition V

 

            Where is the guiding light to it all? I was in hospital and rehab for a bit due to pnuemonia. I survived and still getting my strength back bit by bit and rebuilding my art collection as the days go by. I lost every thing had when PM Harper was in power. I know his Governing party made reference to my life and such, and psychiatry still denies I am a political hot potatoe with no money for being one. I did email the Governing Conservative Party around the time they were first elected, about a hallucination/apparition I  once had years earlier about the environment with being a person with border line schizophrenia. During that time period of the Harper Government I raised a little hell about gyp rock over plaster.  A bit later into Harper's mandate I volunteered to go to Afganistan as an Artist with the Troops, I was ignored with no response, then Harper went to the front with the troops. I later moved to a place of my own and caught a news clip where one of Harper's Cabinet Ministers said I was going to get my balls done in. I was pissed and emailed the governing party that they were going to get their balls done in politically. 

            I referred to Harper a couple of times on the Internet, him and kids, well he admitted at the Calgary stampede one year, that he jerked off into a test tube, what for godly pregnancy tests with women? I know something about it with different things I have heard over time. There was a Doctor speaking up on a news clip from British Columbia stating that this moving of black market sperm has to stop. Who has been doing what as a basket case out side of a medical facilities with sperm. You would think there is a code of silence around sperm donations, specially around high profile people like the Prime Minister. It was all so long a go now, I wonder what became of these Godly pregnancy test people now that we are in a lock down with covid -19?

            With Covid-19 in the air of speculation with what to do to keep every one happy is not a job any person wants, as the Premiers lay out game plans, they have to listen to educators, unions, religious groups and various levels of first respondetrs as they tackle the covid crisis first hand.  Federal money hand out and getting .the vaccine to the provinces is a task with in its self. I got booked for a vaccine shot which was impossible to get to due to morning hang over from my psychiatric meds taken the night before. I am trying to get re-booked some time in the month of may, The rehab center I came out of, knew I slept the morning away after breakfast, same thing at home. I have become a psychiatric junkie at the hands of a Psychiatrist at tax payers expense, along with the psychiatrist's support staff, while legal fees for my Lawyer are added to the bill, it is stupid. 

            There it is on the radio I am going to jail, well I need a trial first, by jury or appointed Judge, putting me away for being up right with the story of my life. CSIS told me once that Harper deemed me as a terrorist when he was in power, so I was never wanted by his government, nor the Liberals under Trudeau,he mentioned Merlin Priest at United Nations some time ago, who is Justin's Merlin Priest ? The term Merlin Priest was floating in the air before Justin came to power. Same light I have run into two males that got caught up in donating sperm for Godly pregnancy test and through genetics have to pay for raising the kids.

      

Doc GM's Political Messenger Vol. XlX Edition lV

I Am Getting A Lot of Support As A Mental Health Consumer Which I never Had Years Back

            The treatment plan and team that follows me now, as a mental health consumer, has more contact and better communication with me, which has me less angry over the stygma which was present in psychiatric  professionals that were treating me in the past. I will leave it at that, we have come to terms of endearment and sorting out what I was not delusional about, such as making a name for myself in engineering and the arts. As a end result I am not as nervous and working with the treatment team, to quit all smokables now that my lungs have taken a beating over the years.

            I started smoking when I was in high school at the age of fifteen, when I was working as a newspaper delivery boy for a Montreal publication and this led to smoking other things as a minor and adult. I wanted to be like my Father and pinched some of his tobacco and a rolling paper and rolled my first cigarette and smoked down by the household furnace to hide the smell and not being scene in public smoking a cigarette at my age. The end result was taking sick and woofing my cookies from the nicotine on a young lad, it was like heroin to me and I was soon buying my own with my news paper money. Ironically at the time, I did not know that Dad started at the same age working in the ship yards of Scotland doing his apprenticeship in marine engineering during World War ll. Dad even conceived me on his nicotine fix while with Mum, he smoked pretty well up to the end of his life and was very difficult for him to quit. 

            Being a lot like Dad genetically, with the want to be like him, I was conceived with a charge of nicotine from his sperm as a baby by some early 2020 medical information that I came across. I do want to surpass Dad's age and I posted my ink pen Lion head, as a Leo leader that I am to quit smokables for Lent which starts February 17th on ash Wednesday. Hopefully I will succeed in quitting the bad habit as a Leader to inspire others to quit as while. 

            Here it is Ash Wednesday and I got registered with a stop smoking group through the hospital system. I have cut back what I smoke during the run of a day, it is a start to getting the patch with follow up during March. I already do certain activities to occupy time with my hands, keeping them busy productively instead of the hands being busy playing with a cigarette in a ash tray as a nervous habit, With Covid 19, I actually stopped smoking out side and always wore a mask when walking about, except having a coffee and a smoke with a friend out side in a park with a safe distance between us. This time I am not alone with trying to quit, I have certain people around me that communicate through, telephone, email and zoom to help me quit during Covid 19 lock down.