Extra Pyramidal Side Effects Have Diminished To Practically None At All

Here I am making this posting and proud to say that I am not handicapped by Extra Pyramidal Side Effects (EPSE) any more. I am up early in the morning and I am more productive during the day while not fighting off EPSE in the morning. I just about, take my medication every night at the 2 mg level of Haloperidol. On the very scattered occasion, I will have a very small bout of EPSE, skipping the meds that night seem to elevate the modest discomfort when it occurs. Many aspects of my life have picked up in full steam like a lean mean fighting machine to succeed. My ex-spouse/roommate always liked controlling things, this character in her nature seemed to pick up more and more as those around her played the "schizophrenic card" instead of listening to the Engineering Technician that I am. Over a seven year period it was a constant battle getting Caroline to listen to my engineering and let me play with it to save money and build my company. Then again if I built my company and finances I would have made certain people close to her look like complete idiots. Now that they are out of the building I have got Caroline to listen to my engineering expertise, while making those that used my "schizophrenic issues" against me, look like idiots any way. Applying heat efficiency and thermodynamics around the home this second half of winter, I have kept the home comfortable around 20 degrees Celsius, 70 degrees Fahrenheit, while saving on Hydro electric consumption. I have being taking more interest at my building where I clean and do repairs for the building owner. Then again, when I am at work, I am not stricken with the EPSE any more. I am slowly getting the building fixed up with odd repairs thus making a little more extra money each month. My art has come a long way and my personal property is getting more and more organized to produce. I have my War Room as I call it or Study, which contains my company office with art supplies, computer and some tradesperson tools, along with my roll away bed and clothes. The back wood shed that my company got payed to winterize a couple of Landlords ago, holds the rest of my tools and wood stock etc. I have some basic furniture in our common area such as the kitchen and living room to make the apartment comfortable as I share the living space with my now roommate. During the evening after supper I am spending the time doing my art infront of the TV in the living room. At times I work on art for the Musee du Beaux Art du Montreal exhibition coming up this April of 2006. On other occasions I will do my own free style art to put up on my website for exchange either for money or service of some sort. The website keeps me occupied with planning and building it. My brother gave me his old digital camera at Christmas, so it will be easier to take pictures of my art and put them up on the Internet. I also have a 35mm camera that Dad gave me when he and Mom moved to the building they are in now. It took me a bit to figure out the operation of the camera to get good photographs. I play around with some photographs that I take, with my art, I would also like to get into taking some black and white photography to experiment. It feels good having all my creative toys and tools working effectively. This summer I will be working for the same gentleman that I was working for last year. I am really looking forward to the increase in work load this coming spring & summer. I have slowly reduced the the Extra Pyramidal Side Effects and increased the amount of my noticeable precision movement, while working with tools and paint brushes. It is hard to work without bumbling when on higher medication levels, the medication takes away motor movement with the onslaught of stiffness. I had developed a stiff hunch when I walked while on the Court Ordered injections at higher medication levels. Now I am walking tall and practice my precision movement type actions with body movement. I have fast reflexes, I have been known to be up a ladder and drop a srewdriver while working, with being able to re-act and catch it with one hand and carry on working. My ex-spouse/roommate Caroline used to love watching me working with my tools, when doing work around her apartment, it is just fortunate that I was here one time and stopped an electrical fire in a wall light switch box in the bathroom, while she was blow drying her hair. That started the battle royal to get me put in hospital all the time over seven years, now I am back to the capabilities I was at back when all the problems started , except the only idiots using my schizophrenia against me now is the owner of the building that we live in. This is no real problem to handle with a Judge at the Quebec Government's Rental Board, I fought for seven years to have this building comply to the Canadian National Building Code, now it is eventually going to get done with Caroline not trying to stop me from applying my engineering, to have a safe and healthy apartment as cost effective as possible. I will get to writing about the stupidity that went on surrounding this building and building practice by a unlicensed tradesman with a criminal record that manipulated people to destroy me through constantly making me look dillusional, through complete bullshit and lies to buy time to cover his crew's tracks. Until then good reading!!!

Playing The Game Of Chess Was Always A Big Part Of My Life and Survival As An Individual

I remember when my father took out a book and sat down with a chess board with his two sons. Dad used to teach my brother and I the principles of the game of Chess early. My brother and I caught on to the game under Dad's guiding hand and we used to play against each other developing our strategic thinking process. At times Dad himself used to give each of us a game and our skills in the game grew equally. Later in life when my brother and I were in the Canadian Boy Scouts, our Scout Troop were all pretty well avid Chess players and we focused on our Chess game at meetings. Our Troop Leader was a really good player and encouraged in the game. At one point there was a regional Chess tournament for the Boy Scouts, I took second place ribbon for a show down finish of a best of seven final round. It was a great tournament and my competitor and I for first place, have fond memories of our match as adults when we meet up. I played a far bit of chess during my teenage years with my peers that I knocked around with, as well as a Chess club for a bit in High School. Using the different men on the Chess board, with there various moves of stategy, teaches one survival skills to protect ones King or yourself philosophical in life. When I headed into the Canadian Coast Guard College I used to play a far bit of Chess in first year. Their was another first year student that liked to play against me, it used to get him fustrated because he could not topple my defense of my King. In the end I would walk all over him. I did not play much Chess out to sea while working in the Canadian Coast Guard Fleet or Offshore Oil Industry, it was like I got more into the game again while in psychiatry as as mental health consumer. I had a friend in psychiatry twenty years ago, that was a very strong Chess player and was active in Provincial Tournaments with high ratings. Over the years I played Chess during my rehabilitation, I would play against old high school friends over a couple of beer on a Friday night. These particular friends accepted me with my schizophrenic issues and used their Chess strategies to figure me out with some of my eccentricities with my character. Time move on into the future and I moved away from these old friends and ended up not seeing them that much. I always tried to get my hand in at a Chess game every so often, while applying Chess type stategies in my life to succeed. Knowing that sometimes you have to sacrifice a man to get ahead or hold back and let your opponite make the wrong move, are lessons about life. With the various styles of Chess game stategies, you pick up some of it in your character for your own personal endeavors in life. I still have the original Chess board and pieces I started with as a child, they were my father's when he started playing Chess and somehow his old game got passed to me through the family. With automation and computers it became a lot easier to play Chess by yourself against a computer. There were Computerized Chess Boards years ago where the board its self monitored the game by computer sensors on each square. Your could play against the computer or against another person by turning off the computer board game. Recently my brother filled my void in not playing Chess by giving me Chessmaster 10th Edition by Ubisoft for my home computer. I find the program excellent and work at building up my rating against the computer. You can pick various computer opponents at various Chess game capabilities. You can also go on line with the software and play against another person on the Internet. I have not done this yet for I am more occupied with doing my arts with painting and music, playing the computer every now and again, keeping my game sharp while I get to play around and learn the software program itself is very worth while. There is so much to this software and I really love the musical intro as the program starts, it gives the feeling of a Chess challenge through the intro music. The graphics in the game are excellent and I enjoy playing around with my Chessmaster Software, I would recommend it to any one that can read, to learn to play Chess or for Chess skill development at any level. One day I will figure out how to use the Chessmaster software to play someone else on line, until then I am well amused with the software to keep up my game of Chess and hence my life strategies, solo with my computer.

Stigma Of Psychiatry Comes Alive With E-mail correspondence with Info-Mall.com

Psychiatry knows no borders and every country in the world is faced with mental health issues, the stigma of psychiatry also knows no borders!!! Facing it in an e-mail correspondence with an American Internet company is dis-heartening, is it an example what our Canadian big brother, the "United States of America" has become? In this post I will be putting up the e-mail communication I had with Info-Mall.com, illustrating the stigma of psychiatry and how people belittle themselves, employers and fellow country person by par-taking in dealing with mental health consumers in a demeaning manner. At first I had contacted Info-Mall.com regarding a search engine spitting out my pen name Doctor Goober Modesty, for a company to sell medications over the Internet. The on line pharmacy has not got back to me yet regarding the use of my pen name for a link, Info-Mall.com has, as I linked to them through my pen name link. So here are the transcripts of my e-mail correspondence with Info-Mall.com : stand by I am posting!!!

The aFromMail form submitted: Full name.....: Doctor Goober Modesty Email again...:

docgmcreations@hotmail.com Comment.......: Hi, I use my pen name as submitted to you, as an Internet Artist. Doing searches on the web surrounding my pen name, I discovered that through links I came to your webpage. The link in particular that I am concerned about is on the webpage as follows:http://www.searchadv.com/search.php?aid=40807&q=doctor+goober+modesty It seems like one of your clients is using the \"Doctor Goober Modesty\" link on the web page I gave you, without my permission. I consider this an infringement on my Internet copy rights of the pen name Doctor Goober Modesty and possible trademark infringement of an Canadian artist\'s signiture. I am seeking legal advise on this at the moment, regarding unjust use of my pen name for a link by a client of yours, in a sense your organization could be making money off my pen name unjustly through links, as it is posted. Any comment...? Send..........: 1

The first resonse came as follows:

Although we have nothing to do with pharm report i checked it out and anything i entered after "doctor" was shown in the subject. I believe what you are talking about is the search engine will put in the search term that you searched for in the subject Go to that search engine and put in "doctor" then anything after that and the subject will change to what ever is listed after doctor. At this time it is in the forth position Like put in "Doctor Goober is an idiot" and that is what will come up, or anything else after "doctor" You are like a dog chasing his own tail, now you know how smart you really are:) We have nothing to do with Pharm Report other then advertising on their site Bye Mr Goober PS: Your going far with that name. Sounds like your a mental health case

So I responded with:

This complete correspondance will be posted on my blog with your company's e-mail address, this case is a typical example of an "American Dog" with a bad worm in its belly that will do anything for money, at least "Canadian Cats" can catch with thier tails/tales and play with them and figure a thing out or two.... Doctor Goober Modesty

Then I got back:

Stop spamming us and I hope you do tell every one that comes to your "BLOG" the type of person you areNow it is American and Canadian? You are a prejudice worm too?BUT IF YOU POST OUR EMAIL ON YOUR SITE WHERE THE SPAMMERS AND EMAIL HARVESTERS STEAL IT, AND WE GET SPAM FROM IT YOU WILL BE SUED FOR THAT. BECAUSE WE SPEND SEVERAL THOUSANDS OF DOLLARS TO KEEP SPAM OUT OF OUR eMAIL BOX I SEE YOU USE "AMERICA ONLINE". YOU'LL FIND YOURSELF LOSING THAT AND ANY FREE SERVICE THAT YOU USE ALSO.AND SHOULDN'T YOU USE "CANADA ONLINE" SINCE YOUR SUCH A PREJUDICE PERSONYOU MAY POST IT UNDER THE CONDITION THAT YOU INCLUDE YOUR SPAM LETTER TO US so people can see what a goof ball you areNOW DO NOT SPAM OUR EMAIL ANYMORE AND I HOPE YOU FIGURED OUT WHAT YOUR MISTAKE WAS EARLIER. YOU SHOULD SAY THANKS FOR POINTING ME IN THE RIGHT DIRECTION BUT SELF PITY WILL KEEP YOU THE SAME AS YOU ARE .But you are warned that exposing our email to spammers and email harvester robots will be cause for a very large lawsuit freeloader. Ya i just searched and see all the free services you use freeloaderSay the truth BUT do not expose our email! You are forewarned. Your threat will be monitoredSorry in the past email i made the statement "Sounds like your a mental health case" I did not really know that you really were - Good Luck, Goober

What can I say, I got to think before I write any more!!!

Somehow one wants to believe there is justice, I remember when I got on the Internet and started using my pen name, search engines were creating pages around these three words clumped together for my pen name. Now the pen name is being used for a link to sell medication because of the search engine someone created. It is funny how when you type in the famous British "Doctor Who", the on line pharmacy does not show up in the listing of the search engine for the link I posted. This search engine is like a childish toy with someone trying to be King of the search list that I feel part of.

I am back to this posting the following day, musing in my mind how to close this entry. I consider it an internal family dispute in the honourable "Americas" of these jointed continents. I have a lot of sibling rivalry in me because I am a small man and any male a half inch bigger than me always thought that they could push me around!!!So stand by as I prepare my finish to this posting.

The way I look at it, we are all on this one huge "Arc" called "Mothearth"(term from Russian Pagan I believe), and it is filled with all sorts of mis-guided and guided animals. I referred to some cats and a dog on this Arc in my early writing of my present post, now I am going to refer to some "Canadian Dogs" that I can write about. There was one that was part of a giantic pack of united "Dogs of War" serving Canada recently in the much troubled country of Haiti. As a retired Royal Canadian Mounted Police Officer doing overtime serving Canada, in being part of rebuilding Haiti, he took a stray bullet and pasted away while preparing to leave the region to come home for this past Christmas. He was one that his follow comrades deemed a "Pitbull" because of his nature in fighting crime. I did not really catch his name, but I will always remember how he was referred to as type of "Dog" in our local news and in my heart I will always remember him as a "Dog of War" named "Pitbull", in honour of his service to our country. Then there is me, some people here in Montreal, know me very well as a "Canadian Hound Dog" that is not to be messed with !!! Due to me believing in the same type of values that was instilled in "Pitbull", that made him a man of such righteous honour. Now any "American Dog of War" can pass away in the same fashion as "Pitbull" did, bringing justice to troubled regions of "Mothearth". Heaven for-bid my American cousin's son or any his comrades in arms as US Marines (I could stand corrected on the correct use of this military term), who are now serving their great nation that they were born into, go down bringing justice to regions of "Mothearth". Justice can come in mysterious ways as does our Lord that watches over us.

January 14 2006, an added note, here is a link to a rising army of freedom fighters working against the Stigma of Psychiatry, http://www.artagainststigma.org/index.html

January 16 2006, another note, here is a link to a growing "Canadian Kitten" weaving her bipolar basket like a true Goddess for her people that know stigma well, http://barefootandreal.blogspot.com

January 17 2006, a new note, A Montreal Police Officer once said to me "There is no justice". Well I am proud to say the Internet knows justice, with being hubristic in making my Doctor Goober Modesty link as posted, what it has become!!!