Now I Have Severe Extra Paramidal Side Effects And Cannot Function Right, They Just Inject Me For The Courts And Leave Me To Incapacitation By Side Effects.
I started this post on the 28th of October, and was unable to write for a bit, it is now November 18 after another injection and seeing the Psychiatrist. After Internet searches to find help for my tardisk dyskinesia, I listen to what I read on the Internet and bought vitamin B6 after talking to my Pharmacist when picking up my prescriptions, then taking one when getting home. I had eaten before going to the Pharmacy, then walked there, and back while taking my recommended vitamin from the Internet upon arrival at home, it worked, I no longer have the tardisk dyskinesia! Where was the Psychiatrist? What? I have to be my own mental health Doctor with the Internet or the the Psychiatrist did not take interest in my case for not believing my story!!!
I had called 911 over my tardisk dyskinesia and the ambulance took me to hospital last week, was discharged from the Jewish General Hospital emergency psychiatry and sent home alone with my TD. Then threats of suicide for the tardisk dyskinesia to end the side effects, my Social Worker called 911 on me again last week, and ended up in the hospital and soon discharged. Then Saturday I had a near heart attack and ended up in hospital emergency once again, it is now Monday evening typing away after taking vitamin B6 and solving the tardisk dyskinesia problem for now.
The Psychiatrist insists that I hallucinate radio and TV, I have witness' in my apartment right now that say I do not, indeed I do have media attention after standing up for the National Building Code years back. It has been a long haul since contacting the media after a certain TV personality, that spoke of my being, when I was standing up for the National Building Code back in 1998 onward, and I ended up getting arrested after contacting the media station. I got arrested for going after my story when I became aware of the media attention! Then I blew my cork to the last Governor Generals Office for my radio station saying that Julie was making comments in twitter about me, and I had nothing and alone with frustration of psychiatry saying I was hallucinating radio and TV, thus her office got my second arrest over Canadian media. According to the media a lot of people are making tweets about me as I have become a public figure. I am now prone to trust what I heard in the media thanks to conformation by friends I have in my apartment, they say that I do not hallucinate radio and TV.
My Buddies are helping me to get motivated again after being pretty well confined to a chair with tardisk dyskinesia, I was not eating right, and had lost weight. This morning I took my regular prescribed vitamins, along with my vitamin B6, and started to be productive again around the apartment and I have not had TD all day. My two hommies as we discussed among ourselves, are here with me until spring for we got to know each other in the homeless organizations in one of the many "hoods" of Montreal. Buddy cooked supper while the other one listened to "Reggae" on our you tube while I have been typing away on my blog.
Getting Creative Again And Commenting On These Flags Of Government Representation And Art Of Mine
It has been a form of art work building my life as an Engineering Technician first, while carrying the diagnosis of schizophrenia, but what is my schizophrenia in the first place. A lot of my life was built as a "Hermit" in isolation instead of being part of society, alone too much with my medical issues, and having gone delusional in isolation of my life. Caught in the crossroads of being one with a mental health diagnosis, after first standing up for the Canadian Shipping Act, after leaving the Coast Guard to go offshore oil. I had a nervous break down and became diagnosis with schizophrenia, Returning to Quebec to be supported a lot by the deficient mental health system, and a lot provincial money, always working and paying taxes as much as I could to have a pension plan, but supported income has been a lot of Government money. Then I even make municipal Political commentary on TV news with my plight being what it is. Why must I be suppressed from having a media interview over the issues at hand that got me all this media attention in the first place.
I emailed my water research paper on using natural spectrums of light, time sitting in the light, and filtration process between each stage of light, to filtering after a hot boil in the kettle to let cool in a stainless steel pitcher. The investment I made in cleaning up my water when I was pre cancer in colonoscopy, writing the paper and emailing it took time and effort I and looked for backing to continue my work. Nothing came of the emails but media attention around my water research. Am I to come up with a conspiracy theory? I lost all my research equipment due to my last Landlord and lack of sponsorship for my research.
I took out a new apartment the 1st of October that came with some work to fix it up , and pass the broom around the building, when I got the TD. After starting taking vitamin B6 the TD came back last night and I have it again today Thursday, after getting my injection Monday morning. I do not know what to do, I am typing now with the tardisk dyskinesia, it is getting harder to run my life properly. My hommies see it in me, the contractions are back, in a half finished partial repair of the walls with my plastering in the apartment. I did get the Psychiatrist to reduce the amount of my injection, perhaps this had an influence as well on the
tardisk dyskinesia.
How to figure things out to solve my poverty situation with TD, alone with no family close by to speak of. If my hommies stay here we have to figure out paper work with the Government, if not they have to leave and find a place to stay. Then I am left alone with the tardisk dyskinesia to figure it out for myself, with the media attention I presently have as a public figure that I have become, with my attending Psychiatrist in denial I have tardisk dyskinesia and media attention, no body can identify my condition but my Psychiatrist and he won't. He said the condition was induced by stress and prescribed another medication to take instead of the others for side effects and sleeping. I haven't a clue what to do with my present status, the Doctor in denial and left alone with the situation.
Now it is November 25th 2024, I have been faithfully taking the vitamin B6 and the TD has dissipated as of yesterday. It was hard writing with the TD and I feel I got a bit wordy in my writing but what odds, it proves one can not function right with TD. It was just on the radio that the cure for tardisk dyskinesia is vitamin B6, where was the Doctor and the hospital? I got the information through doing Internet searches and following through on the recommendation I found there. It just shows how alone I am with my mental health issues, what are my attending medical staff members in psychiatry doing? Injections for the Courts being given to me, and to hell with you, you are on your own! Grant you the Social Worker does home visits, for what I do not know, a waste of tax dollars, and a lame excuse for a job around me, to tell me I do not listen to them and find problem with my living arrangement, did they all ever listen to me? Maybe, but it went in one ear, and out the other, then the medical team spit out that I am delusional. About what? I have not figured that out yet!
The Tribunal Results And How I Am Being Railroaded By Psychiatry In The Courts
I am just out of my Tribunal Administratiff hearing with my Psychiatrist, unfair and not just, the Psychiatrist and the Tribunal are full of crap and wasting precious tax dollars, I have to go back in a year for another hearing. For starters the Psychiatrist stated in his presentation that I am "known for cannabis use disorder, alcohol use disorder in sustained remission and cluster B personality traits." Yes, I have had a a joint and a beer in my life, so has a good part of the country just like myself, so by a Psychiatrist it is a disorder or I get pinned with it as a disorder because I am schizo. Cluster B personality traits according to the Internet states that: "A person of this type has difficulties regulating their emotions and behavior. Others may consider their behavior dramatic, emotional and erratic. There are four cluster B disorders: antisocial, borderline, histrionic and narcissistic personality disorders." Which one pertains to me or all of them was never explained.
Then the Psychiatrist stated about the "2020 verdict of Non-Criminal Responsibility for charges relating to threats against the former Governor General of Canada, Julie Payette. The context of this report is an annual revision." He stated threats which is incorrect, yes I left a message at her office stating "I could ream your asshole and cunt with a hot reamer for what you did to me." It was on CHOM FM of Montreal how she was making tweets about me, I got pist off of at the her abuse of the Internet around me and left the message as I stated. I could hardly do as I said, it was a figure of speech, she was the one guilty of abuse, and I ended up getting arrested for leaving my message.
Then It is stated in the Psychiatrist's report how I "was previously under a Tribunal mandate from 2009 to 2019 related to charges of harassment against a prominent media personality. He is also subject to a Superior Court mandate to accept psychiatric treatment from December 20, 2021 to December 20, 2024. As I stated early in my blog, this prominent media personality was commenting about me and I left two phone messages at CTV Montreal News for her to please call me and I got arrested for it. Hence my Tribunal experience began and unjust treatment by Psychiatrists and the Tribunal over myself, and my plight for justice.
The Psychiatrist then goes on to say how I "was diagnosed with Schizophrenia in his mid-twenties and has had many admissions since that time.....until transfer .......at the JGH in late 2021. Which is true but then he goes on to say how I have had "longstanding, complex and systematised delusions. These are too elaborate to articulate in detail but some of the major themes are:
-that he is persecuted by various agencies and public figures for discovering that common construction material cause autism and other health problems that various governmental forces are trying to steal or suppress his inventions related to air and water purification and space exploration
-that the media and major public figures such as Prime Ministers of Canada and Presidents of the United States regularly discuss his situation on the TV and radio."
Well my bitch about construction materials is misleading by the Psychiatrist, my bitch is about gyprock being installed over old plaster, where the old plaster decomposes in the false wall giving off toxic gases in the dwelling which give birth defects such as autism. The Psychiatrist can not get the facts straight in deeming me delusional. Politicians in both the States and Canada have made reference to me on News broadcasts and the Psychiatrist can not handle the truth around my media attention.
Then the Psychiatrists continues with his subject points as follows:
"-that he is an agent or collaborator of CSIS and helps monitor the international drug trade
-that the psychiatrists who have treated him for years have misdiagnosed and mistreated him and that at least two of them habitually use crack cocaine."
Well I admit to talking to CSIS over the years, who else got all my bitching when standing up for the National Building Code about gyprock over plaster installations but CSIS, I have never said anything to the Psychiatrist about international drug trade, this statement is a figment of his imagination. Then about Psychiatrists on crack cocaine, one Pharmacist admitted to me when marching to the Pharmacy every night for taking my medication, that the prescription was made out by a Psychiatrist that was smoking crack cocaine at high end parties, that the Pharmacist was a witness to it. When I was on the psychiatric ward 3B at the JGH, she was at a round table in the eating section of the ward with a medical team about her crack cocaine use, and asked if she would submit to a blood test, her response was no in a sign of guilt. Then another Psychiatrist at the Allan Memorial Institute was caught exhaling smoke when the Nurse and I knocked and walked into his office, I know what I smelt, I have been to parties too around a block or two. When I said something about it, the exhaled smoke that is, I was told I was hallucinating!
Then the Psychiatrist's report states "He has been preoccupied by these matters for many years, and he has made numerous unsolicited phone calls to angrily complain about his situation. His attempts to contact a media personality led to harassment charges in 2007." I never contacted the media personality about psychiatry, this is a misleading statement by the Psychiatrist, I contacted the media personality over her yapping about me during her weather broadcasts.
The Psychiatrist then writes about me for the Tribunal that "The charges in 2020 are also related to his anger around psychotic material. He tried to share an invention for thermal glass with the Canadian Space Agency and Julie Payette. He then heard her speak about him during the Throne Speech. In this context, he apparently phoned the Montreal office of a member of parliament and stated "I would like to knife her and finish her". How false a statement can you get! I do have an invention for thermal efficiency in windows with a secondary use of a product of an Engineer associate of mine. It is called a "Solar Thermal Panel" for heat efficiency during our winters, which I had installed in windows with the Landlords permission while staying in a triplex in NDG. I have never called it thermal glass, I admit glass is a thermal product in engineering, thermal glass is produced by glass manufacturers and nothing to do with my invention. I just enhance thermal efficiency of glass windows with my product. I send an email to the Canadian Space Agency attention of Julie Payette, including my Engineer's email address, for she was in the media at the time as an employee of the Agency. The email was about my Solar Thermal Panel and I thought of further developing the concept for trapping infa-red rays of light to generate more heat than I accomplished with my earlier prototype, and further developed the concept to generate electricity for space. I would possibly received no response, as it was explained to me by the Space Agency, for she had an abundance of emails from her fan club being the Astronaut she was. My invention and concept did make NASA news on a TV broadcast as a reliable invention/prototype, and I still live in poverty. Then if I phoned a member of parliament, and stated I was going to knife someone I would have been arrested for such a phone call of uttering a threat, so who is fooling who, the Psychiatrist is fangry voicemails including one in which he stated: "I'm going to hang the fucking psychiatrist' Mr Watson full of shit, and he gets off with it at my Tribunal hearing, while the Tribunal is so blind sided they only listen to the Psychiatrist and ignore the plight of the patient.
Furthermore, the Psychiatrist goes on to say in his report on me, "Mr Watson was transferred to my care following a hospitalization from November 2023 to late January 2024. He was hospitalised after
increasingly agitated during follow-up with the SIM team and leaving numerous angry voicemails including one in which he stated: 'I'm going to hang the fucking psychiatrist'. Mr Watson felt that his psychiatrist was over-medicating him and causing him to have side-effects. These side effects were never observed during his long admission in psychiatry. Mr Watson stated to the inpatient team that his message was a figure of speech and denied intent to harm his psychiatrist." I was hospitalised during said time periods yes, but the Psychiatrist does not quote me right in the official document. I said on the voicemail, "I could hang the Psychiatrist for busting up my knuckles with the medication" Osteoporosis is a side effect of the medication I was on at the time, while marching to the Pharmacy every night popping pills for the Courts and the Psychiatrist's whim for a prescription. My knuckles have never been examined by a Doctor and it is impossible for a comparison study at this point. In hospital I did show the Psychiatrist my hands and complained, she said it was normal, what with the medication or my age and genetic history, she never stated. My Mother had osteoporosis in the knuckles and this was never taken under consideration but overlooked by my attending Psychiatrist if it was in the family. I could hang you for what you did is a figure of speech in the english language, where did I learn it from, partly from my deceased Father, he always used to say to me "I could hang you for what you did!"
The Psychiatrist goes on to write, "I took over care in February 2024. Mr Watson has also been under care of the.....until they closed their services. His current psychiatric medication include an injectable antipsychotic (Fluanxol Depot 40 mg every two weeks) and Benztropine 1 mg once per day if needed. I have offered him oral Mirtazapine for mood, anxiety and insomnia but he refused it." It turns out to be an outright lie, see picture below of Mirtazapine vile in my presence. He should have corrected himself when prescribed the Mirtazapine but he never did at the Tribunal along with the adjustment of Fluanxol down to 30 mg when I complain of tardisk dyskinesia that he could not see in me. The Psychiatrist never mentioned the Pro Quetiapine prescribed to me by him.
It is like, how many pills do I really have to take at taxpayers expense to be healthy or unhealthy from side effects and popping too many pills. My coffee table is becoming a regular pharmaceutical bank, do I really need all these pills? If psychiatry would stop nitpicking and finding problems with me unnecessarily, and dragging me through the Courts at taxpayers expense for a lame excuse for a job, perhaps I can get more work and pay taxes again. Which I always did until I stood up for the National building Code against gyprock over old plaster between 1998 and 2007, until I moved away from my ex girlfriend. I have only held down odd jobs ever since pushing a broom and mop when I am a certified Engineering Technician with inventions that a Psychiatrist slanders me over royally in Court and Tribunal documents, and for whose benefit? Certainly not mine! Does any employer or woman want a psychiatric patient being dragged through the Courts and Tribunal hearings by a Psychiatrist? Background checks are handy for employers, I wonder what pops up on background checks on little old me? I only have my blog for self defense. My Lawyer does his best but we always lose against the Psychiatrist.
Anyway, back to the Tribunal document that the Psychiatrist wrote for today's hearting. He goes on to state that "Mr Watson has been challenging to manage in the outpatient clinic. He has had 11ER visits between February and November, mostly for psychiatric issues. He Frequently self presents to ER reporting 'extra-pyramidal side effects' of medication which have not been objectively observed by me or the numerous emergency physicians and psychiatrists who have assessed him. He continues to use cannabis and is not motivated to reduce or stop use." I do not recall the number of visits I have had in ER, but it would be recorded on my blog somewhere as I maintain my mental health story on the Internet, which accounts for 3 ER visits as duly updated on my mental health issues. From July 1st to October 1st, I had no ER visits for sure due to being homeless. It is usual for me to document on my blog my mental health status, and what goes on, so it will be posted somewhere. Between February and July, I was in my old apartment with roommates, so I must have had 8 visits to ER between February and July which is impossible. I will have to get my Lawyer to verify this statement, I can hardly seeing it being true that I had 11 visits, it makes no sense to me. The hospital is in denial about the tardisk dyskinesia, my Janitor boss, as I am his assistant in this building, phoned my Nurse for concern over my tardisk dyskinesia, he and his girlfriend could see it in me, but medical staff could not. As the Psychiatrist said to me, to the effect of, "They are not Psychiatrists and cannot judge your condition." They were not blind to my tardisk dyskinesia, but the Psychiatrist was, it is stated on the Internet that TD is a common side effect of the drug Fluanxol through my searches. The Psychiatrist has stated that I have had TD before, this was when hospitalised about 10 times when my ex and her family put me in hospital for arguing with them that the gyprock over plaster her family put up in the top floor of a rented triplex was wrong, mainly because one would have to move the electrical box for utility outlets out a half inch to compensate for the installed gyprock, thus they made a mess of the wiring in doing so, and I stopped an electrical fire in the hot wired building in NDG. I have not really worked since I moved away from her, as I have more or less stated earlier in my writing of this posting. I admit I have consumed cannabis over the years, it does stop dreaming at night with some people like in myself, as a prominent research Psychiatrist told me when under her care, thus I do not have the dreams and nightmares, hense waking up in the middle of the night. Then again I hardly smoke these days for lack of money to finance my habit.
The Psychiatrist then continues in his report to state that "He was evicted from his apartment in July 2024 for a number of reasons including attempting to perform unauthorised electrical work and was homeless until mid-late September, despite our efforts and those of the SIV team to find him housing. Surprisingly, he appeared to enjoy the period in which he was sleeping rough and did not suffer a clear mood or psychotic decompensation at that time. He felt a sense of community and solidarity with the homeless. He was dismissive of the SIV ream's offers of support and eventually found himself an apartment. Well for starters I was not evicted from my last apartment, I agreed to leave on my own accord after the Landlord dragged
me into Regie du Logement Court for calling the fire department for a fire alarm going off, and no one was around to turn it off, for the Janitor was at work at his welding job somewhere in Montreal. The Landlord got sent a bill from the fire department for an false alarm and he wanted me to pay the bill. I did not touch any electrics in his building and this is a false claim by the Psychiatrist once again. The old Landlord gave up the claim for me to pay the fire department bill when I agreed to vacate his building. My lease was terminated at its end, that was for July 1st 2024 when the SIV team and myself had not found appropriate housing for me by that time I became homeless. There is an acknowledged housing shortage in Montreal. Funny enough the Psychiatrist states I was not suffer a psychotic decompensation at this time of homelessness, but psychotic apparently so on his whim for the Courts and the Tribunal. I deem myself a socialite, and interact well with people, even if they are homeless, if I was not, and caused problems with the homeless I could be dead by now. The homeless have no problem dealing with people that get in their face so to speak, it was the second time I was made homeless in Montreal, if one has no respect for there fellow homeless person one can get the boots put to you at night, and robbed of your limited possessions you carry around homeless. A wallet stuffed Psychiatrist on Government tax dollars knows nothing about this type of homeless life, respect at all costs which I never get by Psychiatrists. Sleeping rough was not easy nor enjoyable but I made the most of it and earned my respect from other homeless persons.
The report for the Tribunal goes on to say, "Despite these challenges, Mr Watson has attended most of his outpatient appointments reliably and has received his injectable antipsychotic medication. At times he appears to be developing some rapport with his treating team and is collaborative. At other times times he is angry, bitter, hostile and terminates meetings by storming out. He frequently alludes to psychiatrists having 'stitched him up' in Court and speaks scathingly of the reports that he 'hallucinates radio and TV. He is sometimes apologetic to the team after after outbursts and has responded somewhat to limited-setting, e.g. around frequency of voicemails. He continues to blame others for his disappointments." Well what? I attended most of his appointments? I do recall attending all appointments on a reliable bases, rapport with his treating team, when they rub too much salt in the the wound I exit the salt mill abruptly, so to write, I do not slam the door good bye, I can not take the abuse that I hallucinate radio and TV with their psychiatric practice around my professional report everywhere else I am in society. I admit during my working years in engineering I had no time for much radio and TV, so neither does my treating team par say, so they have no respect for my Internet presence and the media attention it has obtained over the years, for they have no time for the media as working family people I guess. Why take a punch in the face after being degraded intellectually with a slap in the face, who would tolerate it, I am suppose to take it from my treating team, but I carry respect everywhere else I go except in an psychiatric office.Yes, I get apologetic for my angry outbursts, for the insulting treatment I go through for my skill level, and my intellectual level as an educated man compared to the usual lower educated person with schizophrenia. I built my life as an Engineering Technician then as an Artist /Writer, education wise and everything, I have the same level of education as a Nurse but in a different field of study. I get no respect for work I put into building my expertise in engineering and my prototype inventions, and how I apply that train of thought to my schizophrenic issues. Leaving voicemails, not once has my Nurse returned a phone call, I used to phone calls being returned at work and it is work maintaining my sanity around the insanity of my treatment plan, and hence how the treatment team applies the the psychiatric practice around my life. I am used to being a working man that can command respect around my engineering expertise, in the same light I have the expertise in dealing with my schizophrenia with a provincial pension plan that I earned through hard labour like anyone else, which carries no respect by my treatment team. Nothing like making a sensible statement in session and then being told your delusional. After 40 years one gets fed up, with the archaic psychiatric practice that never left the Freudian threshold of the rubber room of isolation of dogma of psychiatric thought, that I have experienced as a mental health consumer. The Psychiatrist crap around me constantly expands like a rubber band! What disappointments do I have, I am a successful Internet Artist and Writer that picked up an Art Curator out of New York at one point in my career. and have media attention here in Montreal that feeds my ego to some degree and fills me with self confidence to continue what I am doing. It was just on the radio that my Art curator in NY has one million dollars for me from selling art prints of mine as to our agreement via the Internet and emails. After the last hockey strike, the team Atlanta Thrashers wanted to use or was considering one of my my paintings that was on the Internet at one point, for a new logo for their hockey team as mentioned on CTV Montreal News sports broadcast, as reported by Randy Teeman, this is a very commanding compliment for any Artist and not a disappointment in life as the Psychiatrist dictates in his report on me.
The Tribunal report goes on to state that "In the last few weeks as I been discussing the forthcoming TAQ hearing, he has become angier and rapport has been more challenging. The idea of appearing in front of the tribunal again appears to be very triggering. He has returned to an insistence that he has had severe and disabling medication side effects, which never been objectivise and which he had not mentioned for several months previously. He presented to ER frequently for this. He received a prescription for Benztropine and which promptly began to misusing it, taking large and potential toxic amounts. The supply has been strictly limited since." My mental health record and rapport with the treating team has always been challenging for both sides. What triggers me is the insistence of the Psychiatrist that I hallucinate radio and TV, and it is impossible to convince them otherwise, making me very frustrated, and bitter, with ensuing anger towards the treating team. People around me as I stated early, can see the side effects of the medication when I had them, I did not always have them, when I got them the Psychiatrist was in denial. Yes I went to the ER over the issue who would not, I was sitting in a chair all the time with involuntary muscle contractions and irregular tongue movements known as tardisk dyskinesia. Perhaps I did take more Benztropine than I should have, but I was left on my own with the TD while faced with the side effects. I could function somewhat better around my apartment when I increased the amount of the medication on my own accord, the hospital was not there for me to solve the TD problem.
Furthermore the Psychiatrist says "He reports he accepts he has schizophrenia but that this is due to spiritual or religious phenomena that he has not shared with us in detail. He does not believe delusional ideas noted above are related to schizophrenia. He occasionally reports still writing to public figures, though he denies harassment or threats. He believes that medication 'takes the edge off" his spiritual experiences but does not believe it helps him otherwise. His last injection had to be given to him in ER against his will." I have had a religious vision in illuminated photons in a beam of sun light, and have seen ghosts on two occasions, this is the religious or spiritual experience I went through, yes in isolation with this situation I admit to going delusional, this is my schizophrenia and I am not in denial about it. The religious vision or apparitions that I witnessed is posted on my blog way back somewhere. I have tried contacting public officials, they are elected and are there to contact for any Canadian what wishes to do so. It is like a psychiatric offense if I do it as person with schizophrenia. I am not the one in denial, I have confessed on my blog what has transpired and I am not in habit of harassing people or committing threats, I have been unjustly arrested three times as a person with schizophrenia, and my Lawyer has exhausted himself trying to defend me against accusations that have come about. The medication does not stop my media attention that I claim, so if I still hallucinate radio and TV as psychiatry dictates, why not pump me full of psychiatric medication and make me a walking zombie with tardisk dyskinesia all over again to stop said hallucinations. My media attention is not a hallucination as I say, psychiatry and I beg to differ in opinion, yet I am high functioning with my hallucinations as psychiatry claims, and a competent cohearent Artist/Writer besides being a Engineering Technician with prototype inventions that are underdeveloped. I admit to having gone delusional in isolation from stated phenomena I have witnessed. Visual hallucinations are the rarest form of schizophrenia as I have unearthed over the years, but I am not treated in such a fashion. I never refused to get my injection in ER as the Psychiatrist states, they forgot to give it to sui as I claim, I have no recollection of getting the injection in in ER, even although it is on hospital record that I did receive it and signed by two Nurses.
The closing statement of my condition before the Psychiatrist writes his Opinion and recommendations says "In the last weeks he started voicing more suicidal ideas, saying that side effects have made his life unbearable and that he doesn't want to go on like this. His last ER visit was prompted by his voicing suicidal threats to his SIV worker and then hanging up. Well yes, tardisk dyskinesia as I claim is unbearable, sitting in a chair with constant muscle contractions and irregular tongue movement and the claim of suicide was a means to call for help or end the TD once and for all, I wanted it end at all costs for I had no life with the TD incapacitating me beyond any acceptable level.
The Psychiatrist's opinion and recommendation are as follows: "We observe chronic schizophrenia, as well as ongoing issues with medication compliance, cannabis use and anger. There has been one significant episode of threatening behaviour: a death threat towards his psychiatrist. His delusions are fixed despite medication and many previous trails including Clozapine. Medication appears to help control his behaviour
and prevents the ideas from becoming all-consuming. Since the last CETM hearing there has not been any harassment of public figures or any frank physical aggression to our knowledge.
We believe he can live safely in the community with the following modalities: to live in a place approved of by the hospital, to follow the recommendations of the treating team, to abstain from alcohol and substance use, to keep the peace, and to have no direct or indirect contact with Julie Payette or any space agency. We recommend a delegation of authority.
The document is duly signed by my attending Psychiatrist
Let my readership draw their own conclusion from what I have written about, how psychiatry perceives me and how my peers and associates that know me interact with my being a person with schizophrenia. I can not defend myself in a Courtroom or Tribunal hearings with my Lawyer properly for the stigma of psychiatry, and how Court proceedings work, with their injustices, so I did it on the Internet! The unfinished painting below portrays psychiatry, and the Courts, not all black and white with shades of grey matter in between.
Here it is the morning of November 30th 2024, and it is on the radio that I am to be arrested for harassment on the Internet, for telling the truth while defending myself in the injustices around my life, makes this country communist! If I do not get to make another posting for the start of December, the likely cause is being arrested proving this a communist state. I always thought that there was freedom of the press in a decmocacy, and then there is the situation where certain women are not allowed to deal with me, why? Communism? It was on the radio that the whole world says we are communist. As it turns out, it is like I am a political prisoner in my own apartment that I rent, and kept in poverty. My stats for my blog do not even make sense for the media attention I seemingly have. Then there is the case of ceased Google money from when I had Google advertising on my blog, this has made the media as well, communism at its best!
