Doc GM's Political Messenger Edition XXII Vol.X

 Once A Schizo, Always A Schizo, Blame The Schizo

A much as I hate to admit it, the formation of one's character around schizophrenia, comes to a point of complexes. Once a schizo, always a schizo, blame the schizo, as was done to me at the last Tribunal hearing.

What does the Psychiatrist care about the truth? The schizo always gets the blame, and as the Psychiatrist wrote I blame others for my disappointments, what am I really disappointed about? Perhaps not getting married and having children yes, but no woman I met, and had a relationship with, was suitable for having children to my standards, primarily due to my own financial position I have endured in life, along with theirs. Being of low income most of my adult life, I was only able to meet low income uneducated women. The relationships never lasted, mainly due to the education differences.

I worked hard getting my education to make something of my life, if I got what I am due for an inheritance, which I still have not due to family complications, I possible would have met a woman of stature that was fit to breed with. The hopefulness is still in me, but life did not turn out that way for me so far. In my past relationships the schizo always got the blame for the problems, when I was not, seemingly I was not allowed to argue my point as a schizo, but hospitalized for one reason or another like always. Life has past me by quickly like most of us notice as we age, but I am still of sound mind contrary to what the Psychiatrist write about me in legal reports for the TAQ. My blog writings would testify to my readership that I am not delusional, but high functioning for a person with my condition, and able to write coherently about my life and status. I do the best I can to survive in poverty, even although I should not be in this financial state, but up a tax bracket, with said inheritance, and engineering expertise I could have invested further in.  

As much as I have tried to apply myself as a taxpayer, and investing in furthering my education, I never could succeed financially post schizophrenia diagnosis. It was a hard road to recovery to lead a stable life with the diagnosis, with schooling in the engineering field from the start in my youth, I did post secondary schooling studies in engineering upon returning to Quebec, while working in the engineering field developing my skills. The stigma of psychiatry lingered in my pathway, even although I was in and out of work during a lot of recessions during my working years in the engineering field. Explaining Doctor appointments and time off work for injections, led to me being one having to explain my schizophrenia to employers, which led to my mind, and work being put into question. My years of going through the mill of practicing engineering developing the skills I have, from bouncing around a lot of jobs, led me to get a vast grip on various aspects of engineering, developing prototypes and leading to my water filtration paper,  when I became pre-cancer in colonoscopy.  Then later came up with the window filter concept, which I had installed in two windows in the last apartment I lived in. They consisted of white terry cloth and curtain sheer, which were installed primitively due to lack of proper financing. indeed they became dirty with air pollution as people in my neighborhood witnessed, but nothing became of the design unfortunately.

We all know how dirty window tracks become with dirt, the fly screen becomes just as dirty. I turned to washing a screen with a salt and water solution, washing the screen with a brass shoe brush. The fly screen acts as a course air filter the way air pollution adheards to it. Working with an window Engineer, the fly screen could be adapted into a finer air filter for the particles that are airborne in the modern environment of today. We all know how dirty a circulation fan impeller gets in our homes, with inside air pollutants. To control air flow through the filters, a circulation fan could be installed on the filters with louvres on the outside for hot and cold atmospheric conditions, all controlled with a programmable logic controller for air flow and thermostatic control of the dwelling, through incorporating an air conditioner into the design. The window air filtration unit could be powered, through my thermal solar panel which I modified in theory to generate electricity. Futuristic yes, but today is the future of tomorrow!

My Engineering Speaks With The Lips Through The Eye Of Logic

One Day I Am Going To Dance To My Own Tune Through Being Properly Financed

 Just A Piece About Bananas That I Did Way Back, As I Can Go Bananas Alone

According To Several Media Outlets My Invention Is Powering A Space Probe And Deep In The Ocean Drilling

It has been in the media several times how my invention of the solar thermal panel, as modified for the space agencies, powers the probe going to the other side of the sun. Well I am not hallucinating the space probe going to the other side of the sun, several have been sent to our star according to the Internet. My Psychiatrist would say and has stated on Court documents that this is a delusion of mine, that my engineering hand has been part of it. He can not even accept my inventiveness in engineering as a person with schizophrenia, obviously he does not listen to the media much! According to tonight's media outlet, a NASA engineer is on their way to pay me my dues for my inventiveness I emailed the Canadian Space Agency way back. Why it took so long amounts to political interference by certain Politicians, with their determination stopping me from succeeding and paying taxes. I am tired about hearing of money held in trust for me, it has been in the media several times, which I am not hallucinating as a Psychiatrist would state and has stated on Court documents. The money held in trust for me goes back from when I machined an offshore oil drilling auger in a column in miniature, on a South Bend lathe in college, as an exercise given to me in Saturday machine shop. The college went to a lot of effort to not tell me what I was machining, but got me to solve an offshore drilling problem. It even made the media later in life, explaining the BC drilling problem that they gave me to solve in machine shop. The problem consisted of drilling through rock and then hitting sand, they could not move the sand with the auger in the drilling procedure as they so desired, to reach rock again which they then had to drill through. It was the design of the mouth of the column that made an effective tool to accomplish the drilling that had to be done in the BC operation for offshore oil. Since then when ever it drilled it made money for me, and such money was held in trust for me during my adult life of poverty. Well I get tired of hearing about this money that is held in trust for me! So between deep space and deep under the ocean my inventions are present, so where is the money Government of Canada? I could do with it at this point in my life, I am tired so surviving in poverty. Oh let me think, if I have the money, I might get a woman to breed with, which apparently is not desired by Governments for schizos are usually deemed unfit to breed by modern psychiatry!

If I do have said monies held in trust, I could have ended up making false statements on my federal old age pension for the government, regarding my income that is. Interest on money in the bank is considered income, which went without being declared, if I recall right. I just checked my pension application, there is a question about income but it did not apply to me. The Government can fool the people most of the time, but not at all times, so who is fooling who? The Government is just fooling themself and committing tax evasion, by keeping money from me, not me committing tax evasion, I claimed every cent I ever made! I need money like anyone else to survive this economy as of the end of 2024. Then when one takes the issue of not being allowed money that is rightfully mine, the head of Government Justin Trudeau, should be arrested for committing this tax fraud around me, and money I am due that rightfully has to be taxed! The Premier of Quebec should be totally pissed with this loss of revenue in collectable taxes! How many times did I file a false tax return, if I have money sitting there I am not allowed to have, why do you think I call this country communist or is it just a communist leader Justin in power? Maybe we should come up with a political cartoon of Justin with a hammer and sickle in each hand and crown him with communist stars!. Just a peasant worker I am in this country! How to lead a revolution for financial justice free from Justin! Next "ahh" he comes up with, we should put a tongue depressor in his mouth, for this country is getting more and more depressing with his ".....Merlin Priest for now" concept. Maybe we can get him to fully explain these words to the media, I would like to know, perhaps some of the country would like to hear an explanation for this too. What is it? Liberal magic to get re-elected or something stupid like that? Justin is now the country's turkey for roasting this Christmas with a low income budget of mine.

Ten Point Questionnaire For The Prime Minister About His Merlin Priest Concept

1) Does he wear a cone shaped hat with a crescent moon, and stars on it to identify him as a Merlin Priest?

2) Is this Merlin Priest of yours like a fairy Godmother in myth and legion or is he alive and well?

3) Does he live in a Canadian cave like an abandoned gold mine or something?

4) Does he do magic for the Canadian Government as a service to be mentioned by the likes of yourself?

5) Does he have a wife or is he a bachelor up for grasp by any woman?

6) Does your Merlin Priest that you mentioned in the media earn a living?

7) What is your Merlin Priest that you mentioned pay scale?

8) Does your Merlin Priest that you mentioned serve a purpose in Canadian society?

9) Is the Merlin Priest that you mentioned a figment of your imagination or is he real person?

10) Are you sure you are not delusional about a Merlin Priest in Canadian society?

The media is free to ask the Prime Minister these questions for me, since I have no budget or suitable   clothes to attend a media scrum. Where do we weed out more information about Justin's Merlin Priest, what was Justin smoking as Prime Minister to believe in such a thing as a Merlin Priest? No pun intended about weeding out more information. His ex wife would be someone to interview, I sure she would have some scoopable information on the subject matter. It would be the Political Messenger's first interview. I wonder how much of the country is brain washed over Justin's Merlin Priest? No wonder he got elected Leader of the Liberal party, does his caucus back his Merlin Priest concept too? How much of the Liberal party is brain washed over a Merlin Priest, or was this a closet secret of Justin's, only to come out in a news conference. Then again he could have got caught up in actually believing in bed time stories he told his children. Where does this Merlin Priest concept stem from, the root of all evil. An evil sorcerer that corrupted the Liberal party, something like the wicked witch of the west story. I do not know any more, but by golly I intend to dig up this story by the roots, that are cracking up the walls of society as in the Liberal party leadership.

My Mundane Life In Poverty Gets To Be Too Boring

It is now Dec 13th, bored with not a whole lot to do, I have limited people who deal with me on a regular bases. No money to do anything to ad excitement to my life or replenish lost art supplies, that I had to throw out before becoming homeless. With just a radio and TV and my blog to write I admit I spend too much alone. Even if I do art, what am I suppose to do with it, it needs an audience which I do not have. My life as a Canadian amounts to broken dreams with no money to buy much needed clothes, never mine furniture to fix my place up for doing art. Things I need, like kitchen supplies to cook are out of the question in this economy, and it is hard enough maintaining a decent diet with the price of of food. What little I have I recycled, except for personal possessions that I was able to save from my old apartment. It has become a Canadian norm to go to food banks, which I do at times, but cooking all the time for one gets complicated with lack of proper finances, same cheap meal all the time with what I can cook for a meal, with no real amount of kitchen supplies to produce with. I do feel a sense of accomplishment with keeping up my blog for twenty years now, my scanner is broken and no way to replace it, it did not survive storage too good, so I have no way of posting art. Just another Canadian sad story of a poverty stricken person with seeing no way out.

An Except On Society Stemming From A Life Of Poverty

Society on the whole can be rich in character, and poor in status. Where does one break down society to define it as of the end to the year 2024? With about 237 countries in the world, that makes for the said amount of different societies, some rich, some poor and others that struggle between rich and poor like Canadian society, and other so called democracies with such elected officials. Then taking Canada as an example, we have 10 provinces and 2 territories that consist of their own unik status, that consist of varying degrees of types of society deemed by the traditions of the region. Each region has three acceptable acknowledged classes, that make up their own society, the upper, middle and lower class, then there is the growing number of homeless class which must not be forgotten about. The standard of each class that makes up the individual society varies with each region, what is rich and deemed upper class of one region may only be middle class in another part of Canadian society by financial status.

Then in Canadian society we have groups in each class, ethnic groups that has each of the now four classes of status as a Canadian society. Then in each class of being it is generally broken down into blue and white collar workers that make up what is suppose to be, but not always, a fair and just society. Then to add a collar we have those in society bent on criminal intent, which are found in each class of society. The majority of people in Canadian society try to be law abiding citizens, but quite often have to bend the laws of society to survive in the rat race that it has become. What is good for one is not necessarily good for another by societal standards, and the morals and ethics vary in society to such a degree that we have Courts to deal with the problems in society. When the Courts and justice fails in society, a revolutionary force comes into play to try and dictate justice for all. A new and justice society will evolve until it fails and a new revolution will come about by the masses in society, for what is best for itself, by far and large society tries to dictate through the electoral process through believing in a leader and political party. Electing the officials to make society a better place as they promise in campaigning, often fails and the officials are ousted from power in due course by the electoral process or a revolution for justice.

The quiet revolution of the people, evolves with the grumblings of the people that make up the society of a country. When Government is not there for the masses but a select few or class of people, does society fail or does it evolve with hard lessons learned about itself. Hopefully new leaders will come about to save society from itself and the failings of the Government that is the ruling body of its society on the whole, at a particular time and place, and level of government just or unjust. An unjust government will line the pockets of the people as a way of quelling the grumblings found in society, money is not everything, but government will use it as a purchase lever to control the people for its whim, to stay in power at all costs. This is when society fails in a country and revolutionary forces come into play. You can not buy power you so desire, even although one tries, power of the people in society will dictate to the elected Government by rights, but it rarely happens that way. An elected Government will dictate to the people they like it or not, until the next election comes around, or society revolts against an unjust Government in a revolution by force or in the electoral process, whichever comes first by protest of the people that want change for their society. Government is supposed to be there for the people in society, and when it fails in this capacity heads roll off the deep end to sink in its own demise, by the evaluation of the society that consists of the people that put the Government in power in the first place.  

In conclusion, society is there to serve itself for the benefit of society, not a self serving Government that unmines the will of the people. Justice is only as good as it is accepted as justice, the people determine in society what is just and revolt of unjust Governments can come in many forms. The picket line and striking workers is a common way in a democracy that Canadian society accepts, but Government will still dictate to the workers through the Courts to get what it wants, with a total disregard for the society it is supposed to serve. The Government wants a balanced budget, so do the people in society, to balance their income to cost of living and the economy they are faced with in society, the homeless want more that tent cities with eviction notices, if society has to blame someone they have to blame self serving Governments that have forgotten their mandate to serve the people with justice and equality for all, no matter what race, creed, or handicap found in society.

The Governing Bodies Between Church And State

Where does the Church sit between statehood governing bodies and being a preacher of Biblical texts, without getting politically minded.  The Church has its own politics within its governing bodies, what is right for one religious organization may not be kosher for another following the same Biblical texts, or texts of what is deemed demented cults in society. To lead the people in faith, one would think it is open to interpretation, the standard of the various denominations of faith is to give money to maintain the place of prayer gathering, and pay the preacher for his work, and service toward their religious community for his or hers efforts. Thus guiding the flock in the congregation in prayer, and lessons written for the particular service. Most recognized religions follow a format of being non political, they do not tell the free thinkers in faith how to vote, but a Politician can be found in Church practicing the religion while practicing politics, which can sway a congregation on how they vote as free thinkers. 

The Statesman on the other hand follows two rules of thought if attending services in a religious organization, that of his faith which by rights guides the individual with a conscience of morals and ethics, for he/she has to answer to their God not just the electoral body that voted them into the political position of power. The person serving the state has to follow the governing rules of the party, and structure of Government he/she is part of, while maintaining their morals and ethics instilled in them from the various aspects of life they have  been part of such as his/her religious community. Likewise the Church has to follow the rules of their own governing body, where as demented cults in society follow their leader no matter what the morals and ethics they preach. The media follows both with an eye of scrutiny, demented cults in society come to light when the media gets wind of such a bashful way of practicing religion, and leading their people down the narrow path of what can be deemed brainwashing for selfish gain of the cult's leader. More of this has to come to light in the media, for a fair and justice society that the Church and Statesmen are part of. If of the interest of a cult leader, they would more than likely tell the followers how to vote, if it fed his/her coffers well. Now we have religion for selfish gain, and TV religion has failed its followers with breach of ethical morals for their own position of power. So can not a demented cult in society with breach of societies standard for morals and ethics in free thinking, and followers of one free thinker leader of religion, not governed by a regulatory body or the courts of the Statesmen, offend traditional beliefs of a fair and just society. Likewise the Statesmen then of course can fail the Church with lack of ethical moral conduct, as deemed by its teachings and lessons of Biblical texts. In both cases the society of freethinkers are held in disbelief at the embarrassment of a scandal when it comes about in Church or State, that are very much part of today's society. The media digging up stories between Church and State or demented cults, does this not keep society in check through awareness of the scandal, so the media becomes governing bodies in influencing decision makers for the courts in a fair and just society between Church and State. 

Thus concluding that between Church and State with governing bodies, society has a place through the media to bring attention to the people that bring the failures of religious thought about, and its attributes, for having State sponsored legislation geared towards not stepping on the toes of the Church, with religious thought of freethinkers, likewise the Church or demented cults not playing footsie for selfish gain and having power over society, with the State instilling and maintaining morals and ethics of the Courts to save society from its self with a trilateral regulatory body. As we evolve between followers of faith, and statehood, with the media playing its role for what is just and fair in our modern uncivilized world. Of far fetched dogma, or down to earth free thinkers, found between Church and States armed with militaries, and police to control civilization, thus to protect the influential in society from undue discourse gained from poor morals and ethics for selfish gain.

Where Does Psychiatry Stand With My Complex Delusions Of What 

So I challenged psychiatry today to produce in writing my complex delusions, which I say I do not have, but psychiatry is willing to railroad me in the Courts over. I should never have been arrested in the first place, to lead me into an abundance of Court proceedings that are wasted tax dollars around me, along with precious Court time and effort to prosecute an innocent man. The Psychiatrist stated in Court proceeding that I have complex delusions, so I told him today to put them in writing and give the testimonial to me, so I can figure out where I stand in the psychiatric community. One of us has to back down, after 40 years of psychiatry I think I know my place in society, and how my mind works with the complexities of being human. Then again the nature of psychiatry prevails, with its own complex issues of what one Psychiatrist's observations of a patient are, written in a medical file, and to be perceived as gospel by the next attending Psychiatrist, even although the patient built their career into something of a taxpayer. The media can pick up on when the medical community makes a God awful mistake, to enlighten others in society on the failings of human nature, no matter where one is in society. Heaven forbid the Psychiatrist from making a mistake in the complexities of the mind, for that would undermine psychiatry itself. If one Psychiatrist makes a mistake, the law of probability would dictate that another Psychiatry could make a mistake, opening the Courts to start questioning the expert witness of the human mind. So with my particular case, I get prosecuted for being an innocent person trying to cope with issues of my schizophrenia, which by and large do not handicap me, my handicap is being dragged through the Courts for being innocent in the first place. Preconceived notions in psychiatry over there practice, dictate the future of the patient's life, the patient likes it or not. So I am waiting for the written documentation what my complex delusions are, will I ever get it? Probably not, for then the Psychiatrist will have his foot in his mouth sucking on his big toe crying foul like a baby when published on my blog. 

The Trappings Of Poverty Makes One A Prisoner In Society With The Politics Of The Day

 What can one do with no money to invest in themselves? One feels trapped as a political prisoner in society due to the politics of the day. To be free of the chains of suppression that are induced by poverty, one would be able to grow in another direction, rather than be stunted in growth from lack of purchase power for basic needs to survive. What can one do with no money to further education and make contacts through educational programs, it is in the media what some parents fork out to ensure an education for their child, so they can make something of the life that they so desire for themselves. If one is an undesirable by the politics of the day, from having a different viewpoint from that of a governing body, they get imprisoned or shunned by others that are not so like minded, the imprisonment by isolation with the onslaught of poverty being induced, creates rebel thoughts against the ruling body with its view point for the status quo.

I worked at getting my education and tried to apply it to earn a living, to rise out of the ranks of poverty slowly but surely through the ladder of success, what constitutes success for one may not constitute success for the other. I succeeded more that others with schizophrenia, but not much of a financial success in society, does financial success dictate happiness, somewhat but not always. I am a happier person now with no money, compared to my youth with money in the shipping industry, having money with no friends does not make for a happy camper. Loneliness with money brought about the isolation of thought that drove me over the deep end to get diagnosed with schizophrenia, then as a person with schizophrenia I got educated some more, and I ended up going no where to obtain financial gain from my education level, but I do not go over the deep end in thought through my rational thinking coming from my education, so I am the happier person for it. So I am a happy prisoner in society stuck within the compounds of poverty with the politics of the day that does not do much for people in my position. 

If only to rise out of poverty with my skills, that I could put to better use with a dollar or two backing them with a woman's love. Does a prosperous woman of stature want a partner in poverty, I do not know but I would like to find out, I think I am a worthwhile investment to develop with my skills. I could be handy partner to share a life with, even although I got strikes against me. To play ball so to speak with breeding rights as a person with schizophrenia, not too many of us get to succeed in this manner, but I would like to accomplish something along these lines with the blessings of the politics of the day round schizophrenia. Thus opening the door of successful ideologies for others with schizophrenia, that build a stable life for themselves. To lead by example of what could done when a person with schizophrenia invests in themselves to make something of their life, through the educational system and working hard labor to build a Provincial pension plan if nothing else. Thus making it the politics of the day to erase the stigma around schizophrenia with its poverty in society, and make it a fair playing field for successful attributes that work against the grain of civil status, there for sharing positive enlightening qualities for the benefit of all people concerned with mental health.

A Bundle Of Joy

Is It A Bridge Too Far To Ask For, A Bundle Of Joy

             Complexities Of The Male And Female For Breeding                                

To Squeeze The Grapes To Make Fine Wine Out Of Nothing

Doc GM's Political Messenger Edition XXII Vol. IX

Now I Have Severe Extra Paramidal Side Effects And Cannot Function Right, They Just Inject Me For The Courts And Leave Me To Incapacitation By Side Effects. 

I started this post on the 28th of October, and was unable to write for a bit, it is now November 18 after another injection and seeing the Psychiatrist. After Internet searches to find help for my tardisk dyskinesia, I listen to what I read on the Internet and bought vitamin B6 after talking to my Pharmacist when picking up my prescriptions, then taking one when getting home. I had eaten before going to the Pharmacy, then walked there, and back while taking my recommended vitamin from the Internet upon arrival at home, it worked, I no longer have the tardisk dyskinesia! Where was the Psychiatrist? What? I have to be my own mental health Doctor with the Internet or the the Psychiatrist did not take interest in my case for not believing my story!!! 

I had called 911 over my tardisk dyskinesia and the ambulance took me to hospital last week, was discharged from the Jewish General Hospital emergency psychiatry and sent home alone with my TD. Then threats of suicide for the tardisk dyskinesia to end the side effects, my Social Worker called 911 on me again last week, and ended up in the hospital and soon discharged. Then Saturday I had a near heart attack and ended up in hospital emergency once again, it is now Monday evening typing away after taking vitamin B6 and solving the tardisk dyskinesia problem for now. 

The Psychiatrist insists that I hallucinate radio and TV, I have witness' in my apartment right now that say I do not, indeed I do have media attention after standing up for the National Building Code years back. It has been a long haul since contacting the media after a certain TV personality, that spoke of my being, when I was standing up for the National Building Code back in 1998 onward, and I ended up getting arrested after contacting the media station. I got arrested for going after my story when I became aware of the media attention! Then I blew my cork to the last Governor Generals Office for my radio station saying that Julie was making comments in twitter about me, and I had nothing and alone with frustration of psychiatry saying I was hallucinating radio and TV, thus her office got my second arrest over Canadian media. According to the media a lot of people are making tweets about me as I have become a public figure. I am now prone to trust what I heard in the media thanks to conformation by friends I have in my apartment, they say that I do not hallucinate radio and TV.

My Buddies are helping me to get motivated again after being pretty well confined to a chair with tardisk dyskinesia, I was not eating right, and had lost weight. This morning I took my regular prescribed vitamins, along with my vitamin B6, and started to be productive again around the apartment and I have not had TD all day. My two hommies as we discussed among ourselves, are here with me until spring for we got to know each other in the homeless organizations in one of the many "hoods" of Montreal.  Buddy cooked supper while the other one listened to "Reggae" on our you tube while I have been typing away on my blog.

Getting Creative Again And Commenting On These Flags  Of Government Representation And Art Of Mine

It has been a form of art work building my life as an Engineering Technician first, while carrying the diagnosis of schizophrenia, but what is my schizophrenia in the first place. A lot of my life was built as a "Hermit" in isolation instead of being part of society, alone too much with my medical issues, and having gone delusional in isolation of my life. Caught in the crossroads of being one with a mental health diagnosis, after first standing up for the Canadian Shipping Act, after leaving the Coast Guard to go offshore oil. I had a nervous break down and became diagnosis with schizophrenia, Returning to Quebec to be supported a lot by the deficient mental health system, and a lot provincial money, always working and paying taxes as much as I could to have a pension plan, but supported income has been a lot of Government money. Then I even make municipal Political commentary on TV news with my plight being what it is. Why must I be suppressed from having a media interview over the issues at hand that got me all this media attention in the first place.  

I emailed my water research paper on using natural spectrums of light, time sitting in the light, and filtration process between each stage of light, to filtering after a hot boil in the kettle to let cool in a stainless steel pitcher. The investment I made in cleaning up my water when I was pre cancer in colonoscopy, writing the paper and emailing it took time and effort I and looked for backing to continue my work. Nothing came of the emails but media attention around my water research. Am I to come up with a conspiracy theory? I lost all my research equipment due to my last Landlord and lack of sponsorship for my research.

I took out a new apartment the 1st of October that came with some work to fix it up , and pass the broom around the building, when I got the TD. After starting taking vitamin B6 the TD came back last night and I have it again today Thursday, after getting my injection Monday morning. I do not know what to do, I am typing now with the tardisk dyskinesia, it is getting harder to run my life properly. My hommies see it in me, the contractions are back, in a half finished partial repair of the walls with my plastering in the apartment. I did get the Psychiatrist to reduce the amount of my injection, perhaps this had an influence as well on the

tardisk dyskinesia.

How to figure things out to solve my poverty situation with TD, alone with no family close by to speak of. If my hommies stay here we have to figure out paper work with the Government, if not they have to leave and find a place to stay. Then I am left alone with the tardisk dyskinesia to figure it out for myself, with the media attention I presently have as a public figure that I have become, with my attending Psychiatrist in denial I have  tardisk dyskinesia and media attention, no body can identify my condition but my Psychiatrist and he won't. He said the condition was induced by stress and prescribed another medication to take instead of the others for side effects and sleeping. I haven't a clue what to do with my present status, the Doctor in denial and left alone with the situation.  

Now it is November 25th 2024, I have been faithfully taking the vitamin B6 and the TD has dissipated as of yesterday.  It was hard writing with the TD and I feel I got a bit wordy in my writing but what odds, it proves one can not function right with TD. It was just on the radio that the cure for tardisk dyskinesia is vitamin B6, where was the Doctor and the hospital? I got the information through doing Internet searches and following through on the recommendation I found there. It just shows how alone I am with my mental health issues, what are my attending medical staff members in psychiatry doing? Injections for the Courts being given to me, and to hell with you, you are on your own! Grant you the Social Worker does home visits, for what I do not know, a waste of tax dollars, and a lame excuse for a job around me, to tell me I do not listen to them and find problem with my living arrangement, did they all ever listen to me? Maybe, but it went in one ear, and out the other, then the medical team spit out that I am delusional. About what? I have not figured that out yet!  

The Tribunal Results And How I Am Being Railroaded By Psychiatry In The Courts

I am just out of my Tribunal Administratiff hearing with my Psychiatrist, unfair and not just, the Psychiatrist and the Tribunal are full of crap and wasting precious tax dollars, I have to go back in a year for another hearing. For starters the Psychiatrist stated in his presentation that I am "known for cannabis use disorder, alcohol use disorder in sustained remission and cluster B personality traits." Yes, I have had a a joint and a beer in my life, so has a good part of the country just like myself, so by a Psychiatrist it is a disorder or I get pinned with it as a disorder because I am schizo.  Cluster B personality traits according to the Internet states that: "A person of this type has difficulties regulating their emotions and behavior. Others may consider their behavior dramatic, emotional and erratic. There are four cluster B disorders: antisocial, borderline, histrionic and narcissistic personality disorders." Which one pertains to me or all of them was never explained.

Then the Psychiatrist stated about the "2020 verdict of Non-Criminal Responsibility for charges relating to threats against the former Governor General of Canada, Julie Payette. The context of this report is an annual revision." He stated threats which is incorrect, yes I left a message at her office stating "I could ream your asshole and cunt with a hot reamer for what you did to me." It was on CHOM FM of Montreal how she was making tweets about me, I got pist off of at the her abuse of the Internet around me and left the message as I stated. I could hardly do as I said, it was a figure of speech, she was the one guilty of abuse, and I ended up getting arrested for leaving my message.

Then It is stated in the Psychiatrist's report how I "was previously under a Tribunal mandate from 2009 to 2019 related to charges of harassment against a prominent media personality. He is also subject to a Superior Court mandate to accept psychiatric treatment from December 20, 2021 to December 20, 2024. As I stated early in my blog, this prominent media personality was commenting about me and I left two phone messages at CTV Montreal News for her to please call me and I got arrested for it. Hence my Tribunal experience began and unjust treatment by Psychiatrists and the Tribunal over myself, and my plight for justice.

The Psychiatrist then goes on to say how I "was diagnosed with Schizophrenia in his mid-twenties and has had many admissions since that time.....until transfer .......at the JGH in late 2021. Which is true but then he goes on to say how I have had "longstanding, complex and systematised delusions. These are too elaborate to articulate in detail but some of the major themes are: 

-that he is persecuted by various agencies and public figures for discovering that common construction material cause autism and other health problems that various governmental forces are trying to steal or suppress his inventions related to air and water purification and space exploration 

-that the media and major public figures such as Prime Ministers of Canada and Presidents of the United States regularly discuss his situation on the TV and radio."

Well my bitch about construction materials is misleading by the Psychiatrist, my bitch is about gyprock being installed over old plaster, where the old plaster decomposes in the false wall giving off toxic gases in the dwelling which give birth defects such as autism. The Psychiatrist can not get the facts straight in deeming me delusional. Politicians in both the States and Canada have made reference to me on News broadcasts and the Psychiatrist can not handle the truth around my media attention.

Then the Psychiatrists continues with his subject points as follows:

"-that he is an agent or collaborator of CSIS and helps monitor the international drug trade

-that the psychiatrists who have treated him for years have misdiagnosed and mistreated him and that at least two of them habitually use crack cocaine."

Well I admit to talking to CSIS over the years, who else got all my bitching when standing up for the National Building Code about gyprock over plaster installations but CSIS, I have never said anything to the Psychiatrist about international drug trade, this statement is a figment of his imagination. Then about Psychiatrists on crack cocaine, one Pharmacist admitted to me when marching to the Pharmacy every night for taking my medication, that the prescription was made out by a Psychiatrist that was smoking crack cocaine at high end parties, that the Pharmacist was a witness to it. When I was on the psychiatric ward 3B at the JGH, she was at a round table in the eating section of the ward with a medical team about her crack cocaine use, and asked if she would submit to a blood test, her response was no in a sign of guilt. Then another Psychiatrist at the Allan Memorial Institute was caught exhaling smoke when the Nurse and I knocked and walked into his office, I know what I smelt, I have been to parties too around a block or two. When I said something about it, the exhaled smoke that is, I was told I was hallucinating!

Then the Psychiatrist's report states "He has been preoccupied by these matters for many years, and he has made numerous unsolicited phone calls to angrily complain about his situation.  His attempts to contact a media personality led to harassment charges in 2007." I never contacted the media personality about psychiatry, this is a misleading statement by the Psychiatrist, I contacted the media personality over her yapping about me during her weather broadcasts.

The Psychiatrist then writes about me for the Tribunal that "The charges in 2020 are also related to his anger around psychotic material. He tried to share an invention for thermal glass with the Canadian Space Agency and Julie Payette. He then heard her speak about him during the Throne Speech. In this context, he apparently phoned the Montreal office of a member of parliament and stated "I would like to knife her and finish her". How false a statement can you get! I do have an invention for thermal efficiency in windows with a secondary use of a product of an Engineer associate of mine. It is called a "Solar Thermal Panel" for heat efficiency during our winters, which I had installed in windows with the Landlords permission while staying in a triplex in NDG. I have never called it thermal glass, I admit glass is a thermal product in engineering, thermal glass is produced by glass manufacturers and nothing to do with my invention. I just enhance thermal efficiency of glass windows with my product. I send an email to the Canadian Space Agency attention of Julie Payette, including my Engineer's email address, for she was in the media at the time as an employee of the Agency. The email was about my Solar Thermal Panel and I thought of further developing the concept for trapping infa-red rays of light to generate more heat than I accomplished with my earlier prototype, and further developed the concept to generate electricity for space. I would possibly received no response, as it was explained to me by the Space Agency, for she had an abundance of emails from her fan club being the Astronaut she was.  My invention and concept did make NASA news on a TV broadcast as a reliable invention/prototype, and I still live in poverty. Then if I phoned a member of parliament, and stated I was going to knife someone I would have been arrested for such a phone call of uttering a threat, so who is fooling who, the Psychiatrist is fangry voicemails including one in which he stated: "I'm going to hang the fucking psychiatrist' Mr Watson full of shit, and he gets off with it at my Tribunal hearing, while the Tribunal is so blind sided they only listen to the Psychiatrist and ignore the plight of the patient.

Furthermore, the Psychiatrist goes on to say in his report on me, "Mr Watson was transferred to my care following a hospitalization from November 2023 to late January 2024. He was hospitalised after 

increasingly agitated during follow-up with the SIM team and leaving numerous angry voicemails including one in which he stated: 'I'm going to hang the fucking psychiatrist'. Mr Watson felt that his psychiatrist was over-medicating him and causing him to have side-effects. These side effects were never observed during his long admission in psychiatry. Mr Watson stated  to the inpatient team that his message was a figure of speech and denied intent to harm his psychiatrist." I was hospitalised during said time periods yes, but the Psychiatrist does not quote me right in the official document. I said on the voicemail, "I could hang the Psychiatrist for busting up my knuckles with the medication" Osteoporosis is a side effect of the medication I was on at the time, while marching to the Pharmacy every night popping pills for the Courts and the Psychiatrist's whim for a prescription. My knuckles have never been examined by a Doctor and it is impossible for a comparison study at this point. In hospital I did show the Psychiatrist my hands and complained, she said it was normal, what with the medication or my age and genetic history, she never stated. My Mother had osteoporosis in the knuckles and this was never taken under consideration but overlooked by my attending Psychiatrist if it was in the family. I could hang you for what you did is a figure of speech in the english language, where did I learn it from, partly from my deceased Father, he always used to say to me "I could hang you for what you did!"

The Psychiatrist goes on to write, "I took over care in February 2024. Mr Watson has also been under care of the.....until they closed their services. His current psychiatric medication include an injectable antipsychotic (Fluanxol Depot 40 mg every two weeks) and Benztropine 1 mg once per day if needed. I have offered him oral Mirtazapine for mood, anxiety and insomnia but he refused it." It turns out to be an outright lie, see picture below of Mirtazapine vile in my presence. He should have corrected himself when prescribed the Mirtazapine but he never did at the Tribunal along with the adjustment of Fluanxol down to 30 mg when I complain of tardisk dyskinesia that he could not see in me. The Psychiatrist never mentioned the Pro Quetiapine prescribed to me by him.

It is like, how many pills do I really have to take at taxpayers expense to be healthy or unhealthy from side effects and popping too many pills. My coffee table is becoming a regular pharmaceutical bank, do I really need all these pills? If psychiatry would stop nitpicking and finding problems with me unnecessarily, and dragging me through the Courts at taxpayers expense for a lame excuse for a job, perhaps I can get more work and pay taxes again. Which I always did until I stood up for the National building Code against gyprock over old plaster between 1998 and 2007, until I moved away from my ex girlfriend. I have only held down odd jobs ever since pushing a broom and mop when I am a certified Engineering Technician with inventions that a Psychiatrist slanders me over royally in Court and Tribunal documents, and for whose benefit? Certainly not mine! Does any employer or woman want a psychiatric patient being dragged through the Courts and Tribunal hearings by a Psychiatrist? Background checks are handy for employers, I wonder what pops up on background checks on little old me? I only have my blog for self defense. My Lawyer does his best but we always lose against the Psychiatrist.

Anyway, back to the Tribunal document that the Psychiatrist wrote for today's hearting. He goes on to state that "Mr Watson has been challenging to manage in the outpatient clinic. He has had 11ER visits between February and November, mostly for psychiatric issues. He Frequently self presents to ER reporting 'extra-pyramidal side effects' of medication which have not been objectively observed by me or the numerous emergency physicians and psychiatrists who have assessed him. He continues to use cannabis and is not motivated to reduce or stop use." I do not recall the number of visits I have had in ER, but it would be recorded on my blog somewhere as I maintain my mental health story on the Internet, which accounts for 3 ER visits as duly updated on my mental health issues. From July 1st to October 1st, I had no ER visits for sure due to being homeless. It is usual for me to document on my blog my mental health status, and what goes on, so it will be posted somewhere. Between February and July, I was in my old apartment with roommates, so I must have had 8 visits to ER between February and July which is impossible. I will have to get my Lawyer to verify this statement, I can hardly seeing it being true that I had 11 visits, it makes no sense to me. The hospital is in denial about the tardisk dyskinesia, my Janitor boss, as I am his assistant in this building, phoned my Nurse for concern over my tardisk dyskinesia, he and his girlfriend could see it in me, but medical staff could not. As the Psychiatrist said to me, to the effect of, "They are not Psychiatrists and cannot judge your condition." They were not blind to my tardisk dyskinesia, but the Psychiatrist was, it is stated on the Internet that TD is a common side effect of the drug Fluanxol through my searches. The Psychiatrist has stated that I have had TD before, this was when hospitalised about 10 times when my ex and her family put me in hospital for arguing with them that the gyprock over plaster her family put up in the top floor of a rented triplex was wrong, mainly because one would have to move the electrical box for utility outlets out a half inch to compensate for the installed gyprock, thus they made a mess of the wiring in doing so, and I stopped an electrical fire in the hot wired building in NDG. I have not really worked since I moved away from her, as I have more or less stated earlier in my writing of this posting. I admit I have consumed cannabis over the years, it does stop dreaming at night with some people like in myself, as a prominent research Psychiatrist told me when under her care, thus I do not have the dreams and nightmares, hense waking up in the middle of the night. Then again I hardly smoke these days for lack of money to finance my habit.

The Psychiatrist then continues in his report to state that "He was evicted from his apartment in July 2024 for a number  of reasons including attempting to perform unauthorised electrical work and was homeless until mid-late September, despite our efforts and those of the SIV team to find him housing. Surprisingly, he appeared to enjoy the period in which he was sleeping rough and did not suffer a clear mood or psychotic decompensation at that time. He felt a  sense of community and solidarity with the homeless. He was dismissive of the SIV ream's offers of support and eventually found himself an apartment. Well for starters I was not evicted from my last apartment, I agreed to leave on my own accord after the Landlord dragged

me into Regie du Logement Court for calling the fire department for a fire alarm going off, and no one was around to turn it off, for the Janitor was at work at his welding job somewhere in Montreal. The Landlord got sent a bill from the fire department for an false alarm and he wanted me to pay the bill. I did not touch any electrics in his building and this is a false claim by the Psychiatrist once again. The old Landlord gave up the claim for me to pay the fire department bill when I agreed to vacate his building. My lease was terminated at its end, that was for July 1st 2024 when the SIV team and myself had not found appropriate housing for me by that time I became  homeless. There is an acknowledged housing shortage in Montreal. Funny enough the Psychiatrist states I was not suffer a psychotic decompensation at this time of homelessness, but psychotic apparently so on his whim for the Courts and the Tribunal. I deem myself a socialite, and interact well with people, even if they are homeless, if I was not, and caused problems with the homeless I could be dead by now. The homeless have no problem dealing with people that get in their face so to speak, it was the second time I was made homeless in Montreal, if one has no respect for there fellow homeless person one can get the boots put to you at night, and robbed of your limited possessions you carry around homeless. A wallet stuffed Psychiatrist on Government tax dollars knows nothing about this type of homeless life, respect at all costs which I never get by Psychiatrists. Sleeping rough was not easy nor enjoyable but I made the most of it and earned my respect from other homeless persons.

The report for the Tribunal goes on to say, "Despite these challenges, Mr Watson has attended most of his outpatient appointments reliably and has received his injectable antipsychotic medication. At times he appears to be developing some rapport with his treating team and is collaborative. At other times times he is angry, bitter, hostile and terminates meetings by storming out. He frequently alludes to psychiatrists having   'stitched him up' in Court and speaks scathingly of the reports that he 'hallucinates radio and TV. He is sometimes apologetic to the team after after outbursts and has responded somewhat to limited-setting, e.g. around frequency of voicemails. He continues to blame others for his disappointments." Well what? I attended most of his appointments? I do recall attending all appointments on a reliable bases, rapport with his treating team, when they rub too much salt in the the wound I exit the salt mill abruptly, so to write, I do not slam the door good bye, I can not take the abuse that I hallucinate radio and TV with their psychiatric practice around my professional report everywhere else I am in society. I admit during my working years in engineering I had no time for much radio and TV, so neither does my treating team par say, so they have no respect for my Internet presence and the media attention it has obtained over the years, for they have no time for the media as working family people I guess. Why take a punch in the face after being degraded intellectually with a slap in the face, who would tolerate it, I am suppose to take it from my treating team, but I carry respect everywhere else I go except in an psychiatric office.Yes, I get apologetic for my angry outbursts, for the insulting treatment I go through for my skill level, and my intellectual level as an educated man compared to the usual lower educated person with schizophrenia. I built my life as an Engineering Technician then as an Artist /Writer, education wise and everything, I have the same level of education as a Nurse but in a different field of study. I get no respect for work I put into building my expertise in engineering and my prototype inventions, and how I apply that train of thought to my schizophrenic issues. Leaving voicemails, not once has my Nurse returned a phone call, I used to phone calls being returned at work and it is work maintaining my sanity around the insanity of my treatment plan, and hence how the treatment team applies the the psychiatric practice around my life. I am used to being a working man that can command respect around my engineering expertise, in the same light I have the expertise in dealing with my schizophrenia with a provincial pension plan that I earned through hard labour like anyone else, which carries no respect by my treatment team. Nothing like making a sensible statement in session and then being told your delusional. After 40 years one gets fed up, with the archaic psychiatric practice that never left the Freudian threshold of the rubber room of isolation of dogma of psychiatric thought, that I have experienced as a mental health consumer. The Psychiatrist crap around me constantly expands like a rubber band! What disappointments do I have, I am a successful Internet Artist and Writer that picked up an Art Curator out of New York at one point in my career. and have media attention here in Montreal that feeds my ego to some degree and fills me with self confidence to continue what I am doing.  It was just on the radio that my Art curator in NY  has one million dollars for me from selling art prints of mine as to our agreement via the Internet and emails. After the last hockey strike, the team Atlanta Thrashers wanted to use or was considering one of my my paintings that was on the Internet at one point, for a new logo for their hockey team as mentioned on CTV Montreal News sports broadcast, as reported by Randy Teeman, this is a very commanding compliment for any Artist and not a disappointment in life as the Psychiatrist dictates in his report on me.

The Tribunal report goes on to state that "In the last few weeks as I been discussing the forthcoming TAQ hearing, he has become angier and rapport has been more challenging. The idea of appearing in front of the tribunal again appears to be very triggering. He has returned to an insistence that he has had severe and disabling medication side effects, which never been objectivise and which he had not mentioned for several months previously. He presented to ER frequently for this. He received a prescription for Benztropine and which  promptly began to misusing it, taking large and potential toxic amounts. The supply has been strictly limited since." My mental health record and rapport with the treating team has always been challenging for both sides. What triggers me is the insistence of the Psychiatrist that I hallucinate radio and TV, and it is impossible to convince them otherwise, making me very frustrated, and bitter, with ensuing anger towards the treating team. People around me as I stated early, can see the side effects of the medication when I had them, I did not always have them, when I got them the Psychiatrist was in denial. Yes I went to the ER over  the issue who would not, I was sitting in a chair all the time with involuntary muscle contractions and irregular tongue movements known as tardisk dyskinesia. Perhaps I did take more Benztropine than I should have, but I was left on my own with the TD while faced with the side effects. I could function somewhat better around my apartment when I increased the amount of the medication on my own accord, the hospital was not there for me to solve the TD problem.

Furthermore the Psychiatrist says "He reports he accepts he has schizophrenia but that this is due to spiritual or religious phenomena that he has not shared with us in detail. He does not believe delusional ideas noted above are related to schizophrenia. He occasionally reports still writing to public figures, though he denies harassment or threats. He believes that medication 'takes the edge off" his spiritual experiences but does not believe it helps him otherwise. His last injection had to be given to him in ER against his will." I have had a religious vision in illuminated photons in a beam of sun light, and have seen ghosts on two occasions, this is the religious or spiritual experience I went through, yes in isolation with this situation I admit to going delusional, this is my schizophrenia and I am not in denial about it. The religious vision or apparitions that I witnessed is posted on my blog way back somewhere. I have tried contacting public officials, they are elected and are there to contact for any Canadian what wishes to do so. It is like a psychiatric offense if I do it as person with schizophrenia. I am not the one in denial, I have confessed on my blog what has transpired and I am not in habit of harassing people or committing threats, I have been unjustly arrested three times as a person with schizophrenia, and my Lawyer has exhausted himself trying to defend me against accusations that have come about. The medication does not stop my media attention that I claim, so if I still hallucinate radio and TV as psychiatry dictates, why not pump me full of psychiatric medication and make me a walking zombie with tardisk dyskinesia all over again to stop said hallucinations. My media attention is not a hallucination as I say, psychiatry and I beg to differ in opinion, yet I am high functioning with my hallucinations as psychiatry claims, and a competent cohearent Artist/Writer besides being a Engineering Technician with prototype inventions that are underdeveloped. I admit to having gone delusional in isolation from stated phenomena I have witnessed. Visual hallucinations are the rarest form of schizophrenia as I have unearthed over the years, but I am not treated in such a fashion. I never refused to get my injection in ER as the Psychiatrist states, they forgot to give it to sui as I claim, I have no recollection of getting the injection in  in ER, even although it is on hospital record that I did receive it and signed by two Nurses.

The closing statement of my condition before the Psychiatrist writes his Opinion and recommendations  says "In the last weeks he started voicing more suicidal ideas, saying that side effects have made his life unbearable and that he doesn't want to go on like this. His last ER visit was prompted by his voicing suicidal threats to his SIV worker and then hanging up. Well yes, tardisk dyskinesia as I claim is unbearable, sitting in a chair with constant muscle contractions and irregular tongue movement and the claim of suicide was a means to call for help or end the TD once and for all, I wanted it end at all costs for I had no life with the TD incapacitating me beyond any acceptable level. 

The Psychiatrist's opinion and recommendation are as follows: "We observe chronic schizophrenia, as well as ongoing issues with medication compliance, cannabis use and anger. There has been one significant episode of threatening behaviour: a death threat towards his psychiatrist. His delusions are fixed despite medication and many previous trails including Clozapine. Medication appears to help control his behaviour 

  and prevents the ideas from becoming all-consuming. Since the last CETM hearing there has not been any harassment of public figures or any frank physical aggression to our knowledge.

We believe he can live safely in the community with the following modalities: to live in a place approved of by the hospital, to follow the recommendations of the treating team, to abstain from alcohol and substance use, to keep the peace, and to have no direct or indirect contact with Julie Payette or any space agency. We recommend a delegation of authority. 

The document is duly signed by my attending Psychiatrist

 

Let my readership draw their own conclusion from what I have written about, how psychiatry perceives me and how my peers and associates that know me interact with my being a person with schizophrenia. I can not defend myself in a Courtroom or Tribunal hearings with my Lawyer properly for the stigma of psychiatry, and how Court proceedings work, with their injustices, so I did it on the Internet! The unfinished painting below portrays psychiatry, and the Courts, not all black and white with shades of grey matter in between. 

 Here it is the morning of November 30th 2024, and it is on the radio that I am to be arrested for harassment on the Internet, for telling the truth while defending myself in the injustices around my life, makes this country communist! If I do not get to make another posting for the start of December, the likely cause is being arrested proving this a communist state. I always thought that there was freedom of the press in a decmocacy, and then there is the situation where certain women are not allowed to deal with me, why? Communism? It was on the radio that the whole world says we are communist. As it turns out, it is like I am a political prisoner in my own apartment that I rent, and kept in poverty. My stats for my blog do not even make sense for the media attention I seemingly have. Then there is the case of ceased Google money from when I had Google advertising on my blog, this has made the media as well, communism at its best! 

Doc GM's Political Messenger Edition XXII Vol. VIII

 

Debra, And I are Planning An Event For World Homeless Day, On October 10th 2024, We are Putting Together An Event For World Homeless Day Montreal Chapter

This is Debra"s flower arrangement in the homeless park in the hood, here in Montreal, she can do anything she puts her mind to with determination! This image is a simple sample of of her creative abilities making something out of nothing.

To contact Debra or myself to do something for the homeless in Montreal, contact us at: Contact Email It is really a game of life being homeless in Montreal. Who to trust with your heart, and assets for there safe keeping. A lot of people are abusive towards others, we are all damaged goods in the homeless population of Montreal. World homeless organization website is located at:

World Homeless Day Website

As It Turns Out I will Be Starting A Second Company, Envirosin Recycling Co.,Starting With Recycling Batteries In The Hood Of Montreal.

I proved last night I know what I am doing with recycling batteries, I have a partnership with people to collect old discarded batteries for the future company to be established in Montreal and my original company, Doc GM Creations will have shares in the company called Envirosin Recycling Company as main share holder and backer with intelligencia.

In The Meantime, I Have Been Testing Water With My Instruments Over The Area Deemed The Hood In Montreal

With the water test equipment I invested in, and now have at my side to earn a living testing water, for restaurants while making recommendations to improve their coffee and cook water by the standards of my company, Creations Doc GM here in Montreal. The lower the density of the water, the cleaner it is,  coming out of the kitchen faucet from the Mayor's water main. The healing powers of the cleanest water is not being denied any more. Here in my buddy's water supply in the kitchen, it has a density of 1.014 g/ml which I put through my unik water processing with my own filters, I reduced the density to 0.905 g/ml, and I can do better than that, by reinvesting in water processing equipment once again. There are so many benefits to clean water, ground faults in buildings induce corrosion in building plumbing, and this pipe corrosion should not be consumed, for it is cancer of the piping and it gives us cancer as well, when the corrosion is consumed, as in my case of going pre-cancer years back from buillshit electrical and plumbing problems in a building years back.

Dropping Out Of Being Part Of World Homeless Day On October 10th 2024

While keeping busy doing water tests, writing water test reports and looking for a place to live and get more work, I do not have the time or energy to put into World Homeless Day Event.  This turn of events came about as I have to think about my own survival first, I made many a good friend while living on the streets and being part of the community based hostel. I still go to the community hostel for meals and food bank pick up. as I manage my limited budget for the post covid economy. It is hard buying food in this economy, I know how to wing a cheep meal as being a single male most of my life in near or poverty state of well being, so I make do in the kitchen pretty good.

I Now Have My Own Apartment, As Well As Being A Working Engineering Technician, For A Multi-Unit Apartment Complex In The Hood Of Montreal

Doc GM's Political Messenger Edition XXII Vol.VII

 

I Have Been Homeless for a Month Now, And Everything Is Going OK

Time just flew right by being homeless, I have made new friends in the park by the hostel and I get to be a Socialite again. Getting to know everyone one page at a time for their own particular book of life. Angry as some of them might be, and taking it out on each other with a powerful thumping, they apologise to each other and then get on with the partying again, like one big happy family who morn their dead with a serious convection. 

One problem with the family, it is always broke and they have become "Jolly Beggars", as written about by King James the V of Scotland, along with Robbie Burns, sometimes time does not change society. I found myself giving a bit to get to know who is who in the park, while getting to know the family through earning my trust and respect. The Begging for mercy money gets under one's skin at a point, for it is non stop every night like now, during the wee hours of the morning, even although they have their  own Government cheque. What I go begging for is a place to sleep, not too many business' like the homeless sleeping on their porch step during the night, last night I was at my third spot for sleeping and getting rested with some shut eye. I had received my eviction notice from two other sleeping spots when the rains came, just to have a protective cement overhang to save one from getting wet with the rains, and waking up.

Psychiatry has come a long way, I at least admit that I now have a mental health team that I am happy with, for one I am not arguing my engineering point and getting the schizo blame for being the cause of arguing. The Occupational Therapist can prove that my psychiatric file is unknowingly full of crap about me. As one TV Doctor put it, sometimes a patient knows themselves the best. With what little time they have to spend with me, due to the backlog of work on their plate, with mental health consumers post covid, I honestly share my thoughts with them to be respected on a higher level through being the character that I am. I have accessed my mental health file in the past, and their are a lot of misguided statements on the file. The mental health team that I deal with now, is just getting to know me, with what my state of being is, in the natural state, and what my schizophrenia is all about.

There is a lighthouse to follow at this point in my life turning 64 this August 13th, and it even has a recycling compost pit for tree growth at a fantasy lakehead of desire. I know who and what I am and have overcome my shy and timid character as I fend for myself and others while being homeless in the "Hood". I have even overcome my shyness with the Ladies and more prone to chat them up even if they are strangers. People have noticed how I have gained weight in muscle mass from toting my load all over the strip in the Hood and elsewhere on the island of Montreal.

An associate I just met while being homeless, getting together recently, we have been brainstorming to do something for the needs of the homeless on World Homeless Day this coming October 10th 2024. Resourceful homeless beings doing something towards their fellow peers needs in the missions of Montreal. Getting high profile people to take more interest in the basic needs of the homeless folk as winter will soon be upon us after Oct 10th 2024. Business operators must cooperate with responsible homeless personal, that have the need to use store front overhangs for shelter from the rains so they get some sleep. It is hard staying up all night drinking coffee in 24 hours restaurants when the weather dictates, over sleeping patterns under the moon of clear night skies. The homeless must cooperate with the needs of the business owner that we mutually gain from the experience of working together for the benefit of all parties that are concerned with the homeless situation, as more and more join the ranks of the homeless while others fear having to face this situation with Montreal's rent prices.

              Our Logo We came Up With, First Draft Before Making A Master Print For The Montreal, Canada Chapter of World Homeless Day Plight

Slowly but surely my associate and I that intend to put on an event for World Homeless Day here in Montreal, organization is slow to start, we are both caught up in personal affairs and have two months of planning to get the event launched. She has similar issues as myself with becoming homeless, it was not her fault like my own situation, we both maintained our rent paying but complications with required renovations got her put up in a hotel where as I became homeless and sleep on the street.

Stigma Of Psychiatry is Alive And Well In Canadian Health Services

Well, nothing like a kick in the teeth with steel toe boots on the emotional level, at my age and what I've been through with psychiatric stigma, and being talked down to as a mental health consumer by health services. My latest stigma incident occurred over trying to ask out an ex-care worker that knew my file. When she was part of my treating team it would have been a conflict of interest, but she sure caught my eye, and desires. Anyway, I moved along away from her service centre and do not deal with that particular unit any more. I had the phone number still and used it to communicate with her through the receptionist. She was aware that I was after a date with her, but knew my harassment file, but not the bullshit side of the story, so it over rode her female humanistic friendliness to being charmed. It cost me $26 in flowers, and some poetry writings to get the kick in the teeth of rejection through a phone call from her male boss telling me that I was making her feel uneasy. I responded with "thank you very much, I'll go fish in another pond", then abruptly hung up!    

My Birthday Is Coming Up Next Week And I Am Turning 64

It is shocking how I am homeless at my age and education level, even the homeless I am around acknowledge my intellect, the stigma of psychiatry seems to be my only stumbling block. It is like humans are natural born biggats, some learn tolerance and respect for others, while multitudes do not, or is it a few mental health consumers that spoil it for the crowd. There are leaders and followers in this unjust Canadian society, too many people follow biggaty as a sideline. The supposed weeker mind of the mental health consumer, we are face with prejudged when the psychiatric history is mentioned in conversation, and at my age I am getting rather tired of it. In the back alley alone the other night, I broke down and cried in a sniffle of tears for it hurt so much. At least shedding a tear emits healing enzymes, and I felt better when the restaurant owner where I sweep the terrace, put me to work to find a contractor for him to do some work around the restaurant. It certainly made me feel a lot better, by taking my mind off the stigma of psychiatry issues. While still in the emotional state, I shed a tear again over morning coffee at Tim Horton's for what my country has become, where are all the real wholesome people that know how to provide for themselves? I guess with mate and children housed, and paying ample tax for the likes of supporting me, through my hard earned tax dollars trying to get a place to live, and work as an Engineering Technician again. It is what I went to school for and studied hard while attending classes at night, and working in the field of engineering during the day. It was ten years of overtime working in the field of engineering and going to the CEGEP level studying engineering technology. Then through bursaries from Schizophrenia Society of Canada and there building bridges to the future program, I took University level studying in writing and theology to earn twenty four credits. When Steven Harper visited Schizophrenia Society of Canada, it is like the bursary money dried up and I could not continue my studies. Writing about Prime Ministers, now we have a spoiled child adult as a puppet on a electoral chain, yes I like the Cabinet but I became homeless under Justin's reign. He used my street words as Slim Shady making reference to tattoo ink tanks, to quote him, "Now I am asking where the Health Canada tattoo ink tank is?". The Political Drama Actor (our P.D.A. in power) should have paid me to be his script writing for a bit, it could have lead to other things, and prevented me from being homeless at this point. The Canadian people should revolt against him, and keep the Cabinet in power. Make Chrystia Leader and let her mother the country back to health, RCMP concept, where there is one there are more, as a homeless person in a new neighborhood, it really sucks with the other homeless here, they can get aggressive in begging which leads to costly altercations and wasted tax dollars to 911 and a responding Police cruiser. I have answers Chrystia, why am I homeless? Due to Justin's bigotry with his mental health complex stemming from his Mother being and having a bi-polar diagnosis.  That is the reality coming from a well diagnosed schizo that knows something about psychiatry and psychology and has become well seasoned at it over the past forty years. Then again he could be bowing down to the tattoo industry over me, and God knows what the ink is made from besides the slaughter of butterflies, he is like a regular Obama promoting the slaughter of Bull elephants by showing off his tusk on National TV, that he was illustrating as part of his heritage as a carving material with the wrong a plan. Hey Obama, I heard some street talk, Kenya is pissed, they have elephant reserves, what you cost them with doing something stupid without consulting a compatient script writer for your elephant tusk broadcast. You should go to World Court for promoting the black market ivory trade! Canadian Ivory trade is perfectly legal! It is done with walrus tusks, harvested from a bull from serving up idigiousness cuisine and feeding there people with ritual and prayer that they, and their walrus are always provided for by their Great Creator.  The Mayor of Montreal Valerie Plante wanted to stop tattoo parlors on the island of Montreal, go get them off the island Valerie, and then get it implemented Nationwide. There is a French movie of what becomes of tattooing and body piercing, it could be done with subtitles and teach people a lesson about the subject, and jungle warfare around being healthy. I am an Artist, and admire the tattoo art form, on a piece of paper, not on my body!

With Being A Person Of Acceptable Character And Good Faith, I Got Taken In And Sleeping On A New Associate's Sofa For Now

What I could write about being homeless, out of it, I have made new contacts and on the road to finding an apartment.  I caught one awful flue bug while being homeless, that I am now trying to recover from while resting easy and looking for housing. The cost of housing is unreal in Montreal, the Government let in too many immigrants without building appropriate housing for the influx of people. Now it is the Landlord's market, they can get what they want for an apartment. I am patiently waiting for Government Housing, my Social Worker is trying to get me into a semi retirement home for mental health consumers. there is a waiting list like everywhere else for this placement, for municipal housing with the city of Montreal has a back log of applicants. Through assistance from my Social Worker handling the paper work, I visited a semi retirement home for mental health consumers as a preliminary step to be taken in, by this type of municipal housing program. Without this type of housing I do not know what I would do to get a roof of my own over my head. One of the studio apartments they offer would do me just fine, they are space and the complex offers a multitude of services for their residences. I could not get a studio apartment siin enough, for I really like what I saw on the visit. Time will tell for they have a waiting list list as well and paper work still has to be completed.

Who Owns Breeding Rights? It Is A Wholesome Act Given By God!

Where does one start to write about breeding? Some in modern society are unfit to breed as deemed by and controlled by the state. For example, like one of my ex's and myself as people with schizophrenia, I had to admit I was unfit to breed at the time, as was my ex I am making reference too, as two people with schizophrenia. Sure I enjoyed the act of sex like anyone else, without any family planning or my consent, she got pregnant on me while playing around with birth control and psychiatric medications. I was socked and went running to my Social Worker. A Court ordered abortion went into effect, and after her inabilities to stop getting pregnant on men, her treating team put a stop her desire to have a child like any other woman, after too many Court ordered abortions for getting pregnant on men. I had to admit she was unfit to breed, unemployed on welfare with no education and somewhat delusional which I thought I could handle, being a person of schizophrenia myself. Getting pregnant on me when I was working building my engineering future, made me blow my cork. She ended up getting her reproductive plumbing ripped out by the Courts, to prevent another unnecessary abortion, to save a man's ass from a delusional woman. Having built my life now at the age of 64, I say I am now fit to breed as my treating team would say. The only thing left in life for me now, is to bring a child into the world as an older established male, which I so desire with a flaming passion, stable with my schizophrenia due to a motherload of hard work, as a consumer of mental health for 40 years. I just got to find a younger woman open to the nature of my being and health status.. Then again she would have to O+ blood like me for breeding by Godly demise. There is O,A,B and AB blood types, each blood type can be positive or negative in nature. O is a universal blood donor and can only breed with another O blood type of the same positive or negative designation. A and B along with AB are all breeding compatible with the same positive and negative designation once again for a healthy babies. With the added bonus of now having my cleanest possible water by Godly demise, to start family planning on, then for the term of a pregnancy in the cleanest possible home air environmental conditions as pursuited in dwellings by Engineers and Architects alike.

This Is Godly, A Symbolic Mother and Child, I Want to Share This Experience And Grow As A Man In A Different Direction From My Present Course of Life!

 A Good Shepard Of Godly Demise, Could Make For An Outstanding Father

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