Doc GM's Political Messenger Vol I Edition III

Medication is only a small part of dealing with schizophrenia. I always found that it was only just drug therapy applied to me, which at times hampered me useless. During these times, my mind had to force its self to work and simple tasks like reading became difficult because I could not focus on doing any thing but pacing the floor. With lower medication levels which I always insisted on, it allowed me to do more things and have the motivation to keep busy, distracting me from thinking about the apparitions/hallucinations that got me in psychiatry in the first place.I learned that time gave me meaning to the phenomena that lingered over my shoulder and let me find answers in my own way. Thus building a relationship with the other side that I witnessed. It took hard learned experience on how to grow as an individual with the schizophrenia issue. I had to balance my beliefs around the matter of being systematically given the diagnoses when I spoke to a Doctor about my mystical feelings after he/she asked me to speak about myself. I realise, I may have come across a bit eccentric, but with hospitalisation it was drug therapy and I was treated as delusional. The hospital staff never really spent time with me, medication time was the only time you saw a nurse.I found answers by talking to people through socialising in bars, I should have got answers about being a bit of a mystic with an ability to see the other side from the people treating me for schizophrenia. Over years, I found my own balance of beliefs revolving around prayer and shamanism as a way to personally accept living life with being a person with schizophrenia. It is alright to pray to God, just do not witness one of his tools or instruments and speak about it as I did. Then again you can hardly keep mulling over an paranormal type experience over in your mind by yourself, it cracks you up just the same. I found conversation about the apparition/hallucination subject matter I had to deal with, helped me more than drug therapy. At present the drug therapy which is applied to me does not stop me from seeing what I call the "Seven Colours of Creation". It is a powerful thing trying to follow small spots of coloured lights on the neck of a guitar to try and come up with a melody. An example of using the ability of "Second Sight" positively as I do or have done, which is never taught but learned the hard way. Support from family and friends is important so that conversations about apparitions/hallucinations are stimulated in a positive direction, to help the person with schizophrenia reason out what he witnessed from the other side and what the phenomena is for. It makes for great debates which could lead the positive growth of the person learning to live between two worlds with a schizophrenia issue like apparitions/hallucinations and the medicated state.

Doc GM's Political Messenger Vol I Edition II

Schizophrenia is not just a mental illness, it can prove to be a creativity enhancing ability that is useful.

 The apparitions/hallucinations of the auditory, visual, or olfactory nature have relevance to the individual like a shaman and should not just be rubbed off as schizophrenia. The individual that experience these phenomenons, are too easily medicated by the medical establishment instead of putting the apparitions /hallucinations to good work. I was too easily and heavily medicated at first, in my entrance into the medical system as a mental health consumer, and too systematically diagnosed as a person with schizophrenia. Grant you some of the things I have witnessed in the form of apparitions/hallucinations led me into an eccentric state of mind and being, it took time learning how to relate to the phenomena that I was prone to witnessing and it took time to adapt my life and thinking process accordingly. Grateful to have a strong science and engineering back ground, I put together ideologies about the subject matter I had to deal with, as the schizophrenia issue was attached to me. Now this Blog is being used to reveal some twenty years of issues and developed ideologies I had to contend with in the hope of helping others that do not always get the proper insight into the schizophrenia issue. The heavy hand of the mental health act comes down us individuals with court ordered injections and very little talk therapy with artistic animators to produce something good out of an unfortunate ordeal of the crisis that evolves around people deemed a person with schizophrenia.

Doc GM's Political Messenger Vol I Edition I

I Am Editing My Blog  and Making A Few Changes From The Beginning While Sorting Out Links That Work And Those That Don't

I started this blog on mental health after my Father bought me a computer for Christmas after much ado about hospitalisations in psychiatry while standing up for the National Building Code against gyp rock over plaster installations.I started blogging under the pen name Doctor Goober Modesty to hide my true name to protect my parents from the stigma that comes from mental health. Ironical, it has been  twenty years since my life fell apart and I became a mental health consumer. I started in mental health in Newfoundland  after my crises of a nervous breakdown working on the ships and had a God awe full time working under a foreign Captain and Chief engineer on a off shore supply boat. I lost everything I had built financially from working in the Canadian Coast Guard and I ended coming back to Montreal an angry man with being sedated heavily after going delusional in isolation of no friends and trying to cope with fried nerves. This is the start of my story as I tell it bit by bit as I write and edit my story while blogging about mental health.