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Wednesday, November 26, 2014




Will Be Trying To Stop Smoking Again Today After a 2 Hour Appointment At The Montreal Chest Hospital
Well my appointment at the Montreal Chest Institue as to the sign out side went well. First I had to get a hopital card with identifing myself with my picture ID Quebec medicare care. With that card in hand I got properly registered and recieved all the due paper work in my hand for the appointment. First I got sent to chest x-ray on my lungs and while waiting for the x-ray I started filling out about a ten page questionaire on my personal smoking habits.There was the standard two position x-ray of the lungs, one flat against the x-ray machine and a side x-ray of the lungs. Then it was off to the blood test clinic, as I sat waiting for the blood test I continued to answer the smoking questionaire. The blood test was done quickly enough and back to the main waiting room. My name was called while still answering questions about my smoking habits and I went off to blow into the lung machine wo different measured blows into the machine, then after the second long blow I started coughing up flem a bit at the end of the blow and had to work at controling my smokers hack. I was given the print out and sent back to the main waiting room to be interviewed by the Nurse with my completed questionaire.After a coffee and a wait talking to a fellow out patient about this Ottawa riot that was on the morning radio News. The Nurse took my answers to the smoking habit questionaire and reviewed them her self before calling me into her office. Then I discovered I had the pleasure of working with a student Nurse and her supervisor. After the discussion on the question about how I felt about giving up smoking I stated that when put away in psychiatry over the bit then I went with out smoking for about three weeks on stage 1 of the psychiatric ward easy enough before being on stage three where one is allowed off the ward to smoke.I was given stop smoking paphlets and information to help me stop smoking. I did discuss my mariquna consumption over the years like my cigarette habit and how it was the white leisons in my mouth that was a concern for my Dentist. The student Nurse checked the carbon monoxide in my blood by getting me to hold my breath for a bit then blow into a machine. I cranked a big 43 ppm where a normal non smoker would be about 6 ppm. Further discussion went on how I felt I was not totally ready to give up smoking due to how I get nervous with the media attention around my Internet presence and how Harper and his demented cult will not let me have female media personalities in my life that I dub Poisonettes even although they want somet5hing to do with me along with how the Psychiatrist thinks I am delusional about my media attention as an Internet Artist/Writer.Soon it was back to the main waiting room again to wait to see the Doctor and the Supervisor Nurse giving me a nicotine lozenge. After a bit I was then taken by the Doctor that reviewed my file, he said my lungs are still in good shape,he recommended the nicotine patch and the lozenges. When leaving the reception desk he once again mentioned the E cigarette and how I could have that for my concept about a burn't offering and a prayer. That came from being a mechanic all my life and before I started up a piece of machinary after rebuilding it I would have a cigarette and pray that the machine I rebuilt would not blow up in my face or something. The Doctor explained to me in his office that the E cigarette is just moisture vapour and is harmless compared to the products of combustion with smoking a cigarette. So I was off from the chest Insitute and went for a coffee and one of my few last combustable cigarettes. I returned to my Mum's and got my perscription stuck on my patch and popped a lozenge in my mouth due to that nicotine jones. Nicorette perscription was for free by RAMQ insurance for perscriptions. So I'm off and running again to quit smoking and I intend to start jogging again to help clear up my lungs from flem. 

Friday, October 17, 2014

Not Much Has Changed In My Life Except Medication
Here I am getting back to writing my blog again, I have not written in a bit because I had nothing to write about with my boring life in poverty. What has changed is my relationship with my Psychiatrist and medication. The Psychiatrist backed out of court procedings against me for court ordered injections and a mood stablizer. The Psychiatrist is full of crap concerning my life. I insisted on taking pills to control the involuntary muscle contractions I experienced. The Psychiatrist put me on risperidone which I was taking faithfully until I got severe involuntary muscle contractions all over again. They consisted of pulling of the stomach muscles up through the throat to the mouth. I would lay down on my bed and close my eyes to make the contractions go away. Then after having too many days in a row of contractions I started to throw my evening pill in the garbage instead of taking it, the contractions then did stop. When I visted my Mum on a Friday I started taking the pills again and took them all weekend and then the following tuesday the contractions started up again driving me into depare and confusion. That Tuesday I got a hold of my Nurse and had a way of confessing of stopping the medication to figure out the contractions and the ensueing discomfort. I told the Nurse I would take the pill tuesday night and asked her to be present at the Doctor's appointment on Wednesday past.  The Doctor saw me with the contractions and a descussion of medications was under way. I agreed to take another medication that was less likely to cause contractions and I now take 10 mg of olanzapine and have a side effect medication of 2 mg of trihexyphenidyl which I can take three times daily at max. After the Doctor's appointment and picking up the perscribtion popped two pills in a hour to stop Wednesday contractions and indeed they did stop. Since I have been on the olanzapine I have not had any contractions which is a releif and I have a following appointment in a week for follow up while on the new medication. So that is all for now.

Sunday, September 07, 2014

It Went Well In Court On Friday Past Against The Psychiatrist Wanting Court Ordered Medication Plan
My Lawyer got my case postponed in court until we get prepared to challenge the Psychiatrist's desire for court ordered injections and a mood stabilizer to be taken by me. My Lawyer made several key points in her defense of me. One main point was that medication levels are theorectical and she used a key word which I forget regarding how it is my body. The Judge decided that I stay on the pills which I brought to court and then over court debating the Judge decided that my medication level is to stay the same until I pass in court for the hearing on Oct 6th 2014.
I did get to speak in my own defense and my opening words to the Judge were stating that I have been a mental health consumer Ionger vthan the Doctor has been practicing medicine and I complained about the embrassing situation of having the involuntary muscle contractions in public which are caused by stress, caffiene and medication as explained to me from an earlier Psychiatrist I had in my treatment over the years. I also stated how I have the rarest form of schizophrenia by having visual hallucinations. I experienced a flash of blue light like a camera flash on the Judge when she was taking her seat in court. I told the the Judge I hallucinated on her and did not go delusional over it and that I have evolved with my experiences that I have. I also told the Judge that I am not violent as stated by the hospital Lawyer along with the Doctor's submitted transcript about me was misconscrewed information for what actually transpired  in my life. I did have one of my room mates present to testify on my behalf but his testimony was not required at this time. The postponement of the hearing was given so that my Lawyer can access my hospital file and it will give me time to get more character witness' to speak on my behalf.
It is a crying shame that with being a mental health consumer for thirty years now, the Psychiatrist is dragging me through court to over medicate me with my high functioning level. All I feel I need is the maintenance dosage of medication that I am presently on while I try and get control of the involuntary muscle contractions that took over my body on the intermuscular injections. At one point I was told that the muscle contractions are caused by long term use of psychiatric medications. With all going well the Judge will hopefully decide in my favour at the hearing in early October