Thoughts and Creative Works by a person diagnosed with schizophrenia, as insight into this mental health issue. Using the pen name Doctor Goober Modesty with "The Fly" signature, it speaks!!! You can contact me through e-mailing me to influence subjects written about on schizophrenia or give me feed back and comments.
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Tuesday, July 14, 2009
Too Bad People Messed With Me, Ever Since Elementary School, People Have Been Ruining My Life!!!
For the greater part of my life I have been screwed over by idiots that do not have a clue about the real values of life. While in Kindergarden class, a real idiot scribbled on my art work even before I had one of my master pieces completed for my teacher at the time, this type of stupidty has never stopped since! Once again certain persons have made illegal entrance into my apartment and messed with my personal effects, and ended up messing up my computer again from playing with some of my software that I ended up putting in my computer, along with sabotaging my phone/fax machine. Like my Lawyer said to me, the Police know every move I make on my computer and how I am being screwed around and sabotaged, such as people using my computer when I am not home. My last resort income officer with the Province of Quebec is really pissed off how I am not allowed to earn a living, the Quebec Police Force watches over me to ensure I can succeed and get off last resort income instead of being sabotaged by demented idiots. It was my Last Resort Income Officer that told me my fax machine was sabotaged and that I would have to deliver Quebec Government forms for my company Doc GM Creations in person, due to being not able to fax them in anymore. Then there was the demented idiot that sent me a letter bomb that was stopped at the Canadian Post Office, according to certain sources. According to other sources, I have a stolen identity, I remember when I got marked for dead on my taxes, then there is this demented cult that is bent on writing the rules of the cult around my life. These demented fucks, as some of us Canadians call them, ruin lives and think they can be influential in manipulating this country with the financial holdings they have. Then we have all these crazy people that go around selling my soul and impersonating me for a living, while using stolen invoices from my company. I worked hard trying to succeed in this Country, but the American Government is bent on doing me in like they are terrorists or something. I have been terrorised and cock teased enough by media personalities sabotaging my life. I do have my favorite radio station that stands by me and fights for the good of justice against the American stupidity doing me in. I did put an idiot American business man in prison a long time ago, and it is like the American Government can not stand it and is bent on revenge by manipulating my Internet presence, such as playing with and controlling my email, and site meter. At least here in Canada, we do not make ourselves out to be the ultimate political bigots, the American Government can not destroy me with certain well paid politicians, eg: stealing my Google account monies, jealousy is the best compliment. I hear it has a lot to do with the American I also nailed poisoning Canadians by putting up gyp rock over our hundred year old plaster as a CIA way of giving Canadians cancer to wipe us out so that they can control our water, oil and hydro due to the United States of America being over populated with no such resources. I remember the book, "Missing", how the CIA put in a dictatorship in Chile to control copper mines for the American industry and military, once again Americans short of a natural resource and murdering a couple of Canadians along with people from Chile while putting in the dictatorship. I am an innocent man, free of any wrong doing, and just because I put some Americans in prison here in Canada, the American Government is bent on sabotaging my life and manipulating truths to make themselves look good in their own demented ways. Never mine when I shut down the KluKlux Klan/Neo-Nazi, Fort Matthieu here in Montreal, with our National Police force, the righteous and honourable RCMP! The British Secrete Police, MI5 even paid me a visit at the time!!! I remember being in the Northern United States and ended up in a bar, where it was common practice to raise funds for the I.R.A., hence undermining the Queen of England and Her British Empire. I was solicited to give to the I.R.A. in the American bar/swilling joint, and I have family that have served in the British military. When I was in Edinburgh, Scotland, at Edinburgh Castle, I remember saying the words to a military guard at the Castle while showing her my Canadian Coast Guard College "Suds & Rat T-shirt" and wearing my Scottish tam, "You got a real fortress here, by the time I am through taking on all the demented fucks on the other side of the Ocean, and the vagabonds come after me, I will have to retreat to your Castle, so you better stand on guard real good here, so I will have someone to breed with." The wonderful Lady in British Military Uniform was a fantastically gorgeous blond woman! I made her smirk with my comment and she was put on report somehow! So screw you United States of America, you and your Government are thieving idiots that stole my Google Account monies and we Canadians all know it!!!!!! So I am giving you Americans the finger, just like our ex-Prime Minister Pierre Elliot Trudeau gave you people and Nixon the finger, while leaving the States when boarding a plane, as viewed on TV when I was a child!!!!!
Envirosin, My Theological Aspect of Recycling To Ensure A Better Healthier Planet, Through Concepts Of A Deity Named, "Mothearth".
Back in 1992, I did a fund raiser for environmental concerns for our beloved Planet, I worked out of a boiler room in an Industrial Complex where I was self employed. I mailed myself a letter by registered mail with Canada Post, using the return address of my girl friend at the time, in effect registering the name "Envirosin". I still have the unopened letter for Court Room purposes if their is any dispute of me creating the name for my personal beliefs in recycling as an Engineering Technician. The whole concept grew and evolved, the image in this posting is a photo I took of a statuette here in Montreal, that symbolically portrays my Planetary Deity, "Mothearth", stemming from the name of the Russian Pagan Goddess of the Planet. She carries a heavy burden on her shoulder providing for man & woman kind alike, while we total abuse her as we damage the Planet and rape, pillage and blunder her for our selfish gain, while not respecting other life forms that we are destroying as we forge ahead into the new millennium. We have sinned against the Planet since before the industrial revolution in the late 1800's. I am doing more now to recycle, am developing another prototype invention to assist in maintaining more of a harmonic balance with regard to environmental concerns. At the same time, I put together an older concept in engineering to help further purify domestic water to more of a base natural water compared to the acid rain we have to deal with. We always dealt with the concept of hard or soft water in engineering, I am working on converting the water I process, into a more base product, to help deal with the excessive acidic soil we also have to deal with from a multitude of years of acid rain. It is getting late and I will finish the posting later due to fatigue setting in...in a while!
After Studying About The History of The Church's Sacred Heart In Theology Class Last Semester, I Created One Artistically For My Own Pagan Eggs & Snail Beliefs, That I Have As A Theology Student At Concordia University Here In Montreal I created this sacred heart sketch with oil pastels on paper designed for oil pastel drawings. The Celtic crown is symbolic of my roots from Scotland, and Ireland as my Mother has informed me. Mum's parents settled in Scotland after they departed from Ireland. The concept of the heart comes from the Church's sacred heart, with the eyes in the heart stemming from the all knowing God & Goddess of my Pagan Eggs and Snails beliefs. The Pagan Eggs & Snails concept comes from Pagan egg sacrifice at alters pre-Christian period in the ancient Celtic belief system. The ideologies behind the Snails, is the slow crawl to God and his Consort, (God of Thunder, Goddess- thefertile land of the planet that the rains of thunder storms impregnate) The Star of David is placed in my Sacred Heart, as I have strong attachment to believing in the descendants of Abraham, Judaism, populating the Planet while looking for fertile land to settle and breed on. The smiling face in the Star of David, is symbolic of the crescent moon from the Muslim faith. As I learned in my theology class last semester, the Muslim Prophet Mohamed, came after Jesus Christ, as there was great Prophets before Jesus Christ. Behind the crowned sacred heart, is the Canadian maple leaf as a symbolic token of our Dominion of Canada as we once call our Country. It is funny how our founding Fathers of Confederation chose July 1st as the day of the birth of our Nation, as we Canadians celebrate the holiday of July 1st, we are actually respecting a Law that God gave to Moses for the first day of the seventh month to be a holiday. Bit by bit I grow closer to my God and his Consort as I learn from the teaching through my theology lessons at University, some how a bit of a Canaanite from days of old that believes in God and his Consort, that strongly wants mutual respect and tolerance for all creeds and their own beliefs as long as they are honest and respectful to others and do not practice thievery and corruption to do in any individual or creed with their own faith and religion. On the other side, certain individuals and armies have demented beliefs that are ungodly to the point of being extremists/supremacist that have to be dealt with appropriately.
North American Native/Celtic Depiction of Me The Hound Dog
Since I have been studying various types of art work from around the World, I have discovered that there is a similar resemblance between North American Native Indian art and the art of my ancestry, early Celtic style art from Scotland. Any way, the other day I was watching the Native channel on cable TV here in Montreal, and got an art lesson from a Native Art Instructor. From the lesson I learned, that the original Native style of art consisted of line formations consisting of "U", "L" , and "S" type shapes. So after the art lesson from the Native cable TV station, I put my chaulk pastel to work, and created a symbolic "Hound Dog" portrait of myself. I choose the colours carefully for the symbolic meaning for my own artistic purposes. In the neck, I put the two"S" shapes together to form a modern high speed type propeller found on controllable pitch propeller designs in ship construction. It is what drives me in my creative endeavors, to forge ahead and produce no matter how much I am suppressed due to circumstances. Ironically, a Petty Officer in Engineering on Canadian ships often wear a ship's propeller on their sleeve indicating his/her rank in uniform. With me being a petty Artist/Writer with limited resources other than the Internet, I choose the double "S" shape to form a ship's propeller on the neck of my "Hound Dog", as a depiction of my petty Artist/Writer rank as some sort of "Hound Dog" sniffing out different types of engineering problems in buildings, along with producing engineering designs as a Engineering Technician, like a high speed variable pitch propeller found on some modern ships. (Canadian Coast Guard College education kicking into gear here) What the heck, I produced a wonderful piece of art and learned something about my local Native community and their art work, which can closely resemble the Celtic art of my ancestry. ....Till later, the Doctor Schizo Nut working hard!
My dream ship, the H.M.C.S. Answer, the name really stands for, Holy Magic Canadian Ship Answer, stemming from magic art or religious art from early Church paintings as I was taught at the Museum of Fine Art here in Montreal. I wrote the words for the painting in my youth when I felt a spiritual presence influencing the pen in my hand, it was like the spirit of the old explorer Sir Francis Drake was with me when I wrote the words. I later did the painting from measuring the HMCS Bluenose off the Canadian dime with a magnifying glass, then drafted it onto a piece of wood and painted it. I added the deck housing as a modern day version of the Bluenose, one day to be built in a Newfoundland ship yard so that Canadians can go sailing and have a meal in the deck house dining room, while having a shot or two of Newfoundland screech, (Newfie rum). Prints are availible for $20 to help finance ship construction. Any way, it is early morning and grub time, kind of like, rub a dub dub, thanks for the grub.....Will write more later....Goober the Nut (If email does not work, try phoning at 514 366 0239, then you will get a real laugh)
Some People Never Learn, Funny How Expensive It Can Get Trying To Sabotage Me
It has been a hell of a night going through some deception and crap, more or less people making my life difficult. Then again it is pay day today and I am going to make the best of it. The title of this image is "Confucius Confusion", like the stupid idiots making my life awkward and steeling from me. When looking for a piece of my memorabilia late this evening, and it seems to have disappeared from my apartment. I was looking at it a couple of months ago, some associates of mine are smoking due to the fact that I can not find it. Apparently it is in good hands, when idiot thieves stole it, they got busted, and a Court delegated care taker of my stolen property has it. Like a lot of my stuff over the years, things have disappeared, but always ended up in good hands for safe keeping while I did my "Hound Dogging" stuff for my Country and Flag, sniffing out the bull crap that was sabotaging my life and Government tax dollars that I tried to generate through my self employment or on the pay roll of a company. My Lawyer is handling a lot of law suits for me, some people never learn, then they lose everything in law suits due to messing with my life and company. Be it a lesson, it is going to cost you a lot of money trying to stop me from succeeding and getting out of a low income bracket, and doing what I want to do for my fellow Country men/women with art and engineering. Apparently the Troops in our Military want me to get a piece of art up on the Internet again, it was a piece of art they really appreciated. I will get to it, now that I got my computer fixed up and all. I do have my fan club that gets messages to me while my team tries to rectify the hacking into my email account and deleting of my messages. I know people that sent me messages, that I never got, so who is fooling who.......till later, the Doctor is now out to do a patrol as a Hound Dog.
Some People Are Really Bent On Sabotage, Especially Where It Comes To My Internet Presence
Well, here I am making a blog posting once again, a lot has gone on to destroy my life, along with making sure that I do not appear in Court for my June appearance. So here you have it, my "Fly" character is now back up on the Internet, along with my Canadian Flag over the globe/ball, it is incomplete art as of yet. I march to the beat of my own drum and I am fully backed by the Government of Quebec here in Canada. The present Federal Government wants to do me in, but the Opposition Parties seem to want to put an end to the stupidity of the Conservative Government and driving our Country into a 50 Billion dollar deficit. Everyone that backs me knows there is a great deal of money dealing with my Canadian story and my proto-type inventions for heat savings during the Canadian winter, along with other inventions developed with my engineering expertise. I had to shut down my web site with angelfire due to a virus complication and sabotage infecting my computer with a tracking cookie that contained a virus. Problem solved with the expertise of a Quebec company that vows to keep my computer in tip top shape no matter what. Try and email me, I will not get the email due to sabotage and hackers using tracking cookies to get my passwords etc. So to bad, I got a Quebec company monitoring all my computer activity, along with my email account so that I can succeed. People that attempt to sabotage, me "The Fly" or my Country and Flag will be prosecuted in Court. Funny thing, international industrial sabotage can lead to wars, as found in World history, so do not mess with me and my Internet presence, or my home/business computer, a God of War may get you and you could end up in the World Court in the Hague for your stupidity. Like it was on the home page of my web site with angelfire, do not print my material, or save to disk or hard drive, it was my interlectual property to earn a living with, I heard from an RCMP News broadcast that counterfeit copies of my art and illegal copies of my written material are floating around places, talk about prospective law suits. After all, some years back, another person with the same family and given name, my look alike, got blown away on the streets, and I got marked for dead on my taxes, then at a summer birthday party I said my name to someone. She responded with, "You are suppose to be dead." I immediately went to the RCMP on the next business day! .... till later Doctor Goober!!!
Due To Illegal Entrance Into My Apartment By Certain Intruders, My Computer Was Shut Down!!!
Sorry I do know what to say, I am using a computer terminal at a local computer store and do not have the budget as of yet to make a complete blog posting. At least I am making a posting with an image. The image is a black and white snap shot of an old building on Montreal's Mount Royal. Thanks to my fellow Country men, women and children, my apartment is now like a fortress as the image building was years ago, so that no one will mess with my stuff again. Till later, as I am restructuring with a lot of honest and righteous people to make debit ends to pay bills like the rest of us!!! Update: Friday, May 14th 2009.....well, after a lot of hard work I finally got my computer re-booted so I will soon get back to making an appropriate blog posting to fill in all the blanks and give a few details of what transpired around my apartment with industrial sabotage. It is a Canadian Federal crime that can get you 25 years in prison along with losing all your assets for what it cost me.....later! Now I have another little update note, not only did people come into my apartment and shut down my computer, they stole software and left bullshit discs for me to try and re-install after I got my computer going again. Art was also stolen that was done with my Scrapbook Factory software, my Iron Butterfly & Scarlett Letter notes........what corrupt assholes will do for money and try and impersonate me!!!!!! As the Beetles put it in one of their songs, "It Is A Joke, And The Whole World Is Laughing" Well, even my web site has been messed with along the the Hospital web site I am part of, hackers trying to discredit me, like my Lawyer said to me, so many people are being sued it is not even funny. It is clean up time, and idiots get to spend 25 years in a Federal prison for industrial sabotage!!!!
OK, What can I Write, I Owe The Conservative Party Of Canada An Apology Here I go again, plugging out the words, I use my writings in my blog as anger management sometimes. I wrote some heavy words in my last posting preparing for C0urt today. My Lawyer told me I can not make entries in my Love Story Page on my website, but as to the image in this posting, it is rather "Special Lady Like" . It is a squiggle drawing I did in the Montreal Allan, the subconscious mind at work. Sorry Stockwell Day what I wrote about you, and the Conservative Party of Canada, it was just my anger coming out about how I had to serve my Country as to an agreement in Canadian Coast Guard College to take on the mob in ten or twenty years. I have been through hell and back again Stockwellfulfilling that vow, Like my squiggle drawing, all I ever wanted was a Buddha Belly, a child in the womb of a woman, it feel that first kick of a growing baby, and I never had the experience. I was always being fucked around being the "honky nigger" of the RCMP and CSIS while laying out the sniper cable for them to take down the mob and clean up our streets. All I really ever had was my sweet heart fantasies masturbating myself to sleep instead of popping a Psychiatrist's sleeping pills with the stress of the commitment of serving my Country in the Peace Tower clock that I committed myself to when ask to be part of it in the Canadian Coast Guard College machine shop by a very special instructor. Ever since then, I have come to realize that there has been a lot of dis-information/information put out about me, my Government trained me and stood by me in so many countless ways, including a lot of financial investment to protect me and the Country that I so dearly love. Stockwell, really now, my first major bust with the RCMP, I took down a corrupt American business man operating in the east end of Montreal, he threatened to have my legs broken and I lived the nightmare ever since, so I took my anger out on my upper brass, your dual Nationality with your American citizenship and the Conservative Party of Canada, as I am left like the Led Zeppelin song, "Dazed and Confused" while continuing laying our very special sniper wire for RCMP and CSIS for National Security as to your member of Parliamentportfolio that you held so dearly. How many soldiers have cursed their upper brass for what they had to do, I only had the Internet to do my cursing on. So, sorry to my Conservative Party of Canada and Stockwell Day, I am a good soldier for my Country's Peace Tower Clock sniper wire wiring that I do, I took my frustration of the job out on my upper brass. On the other side of the coin that has many grooves in the edges, I am still haunted by the words, "I am Neo-Nazi mob, and I want him fucking dead", thanks for spending the money to make sure I did not end up that way, I am getting older now, and I still want to feel the kick of my first Buddha Belly in a woman's womb....as I soldier on for my Country, God love my Government of Canada for investing and protecting me....your Goober the Nut...love always